baxibermuda

5 months sober again re read my posts full of anger,moody and resentful tried praying, tried asking god ,tried upping my meetings, tried excercise tried to accept first step and cant feel i am waiting to die and that my life is joyless can anyone identify and if so what did you do

Sanantoniosober

Completely identify with this feeling. I asked God several times to either help me get through this, or let me die. I didn't care how.

It helps to talk about it, face to face or on this website.

Luckily I was able to talk to someone with experience and he helped me through the worst days.

I hope you can find the same, in real life or on here.

(Who says this isn't real life? It feels pretty real to me, and the results sure are real!)

Threshold

have you felt this way the entire time you've been sober?

If you live in the Northern Hemisphere there is the time of year (short days, low Sun) that many many people get seasonal depression. That may be playing into this.

What you describe sounds very much like the flat aspect of depression. And prayer, exercise etc is often not enough to address it.

I go through periods of this, sometimes lasting a rather long time. I don't know what might help your particular situation..but I do know that drinking has never helped depression get better.

hugs

KateL

I can't say I ever felt like that during sobriety. I did when I was drinking. It could be a seasonal thing. I'd go and see the doctor. Good luck xxxx

doggonecarl

Five months is awesome.

Stuck at the first step. That may account for the still existing void in your life. I don't know.

You've posted before about getting a sponsor and working the steps. Perhaps your focus should be there. Just a thought.

Thepatman

I'm am at the early weeks of sobriety so I'm not sure if your feeling is normal.

Personally, I knew things would be different and appear less exciting. When the party is over the party is over.

I partied enough for 2 lifetimes anyway.