misshelena

I was doing so well.. I was a month sober on 25 December and slipped and drunk again.. I have not had the courage to admit this until today.. I have not had a drink since then.. So my new sober day is 26 dec.. Since breaking my 15 year sobriety I am finding it hard to stay sober.. But on the bright side a month is great and I haven't felt the urge since Christmas Day... I really can not wait for January.. X

diffingo911

That's Awesome, MissHelena-We GOTTA Keep trying...I'm on hour 20 if My 1st 24...

AL
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GracieLou

I appreciate your honesty, it can be a hard pill to swallow. I am glad you have gotten back on the horse. The past is the past. We can only move on from here.

Look into the reasons you relapsed and then work on those.

Everything is going to be okay. Hang in there!

misshelena

Thank you for your replies... It's better for me too be honest then I can move forward... I'm looking at the reasons for my slip.. People,places and things..

GracieLou

I understand that. To thine own self be true. I think once I could recognize that I deflected many of the choices I made to others that I could stop doing it. I blamed them in some way for my actions. I had to be honest and come to the honest conclusion that they were my actions/choices.

Once I got the that honesty I was able to own more of my recovery.

KateL

Well done and I am so glad you are not beating yourself up about it TOO MUCH, in fact don't beat yourself up at all. Good call !!!!

IOAA2

Hi, I'm glad you made it back as I know the difficulty involved. For two years I wanted to drink more than I wanted to get sober. With a head full of AA and a belly full of booze I had so much guilt that I felt I needed to drink more to get rid of the shame. For me in early relapses that were weekly I couldn't see the insanity of my thinking or actions as I was always in the escape mode until I surrendered and accepted the fact I could not drink in safety. A real rocket scientist! A huge help for me was so many said KEEP COMING.

BE WELL

HeadLump

I commend your honesty, misshelena. To be struggling again after 15 years sober must be hard to accept. But you're showing tremendous strength by not giving up. You won't let this thing beat you - and with 15 years under your belt, I think the intelligent money's on you!

This novice is rooting for you. I hope you can feel it

Croissant

Hi Helena. You had a month under your belt and it must be hard after a year of drinking to find your way back to the sober path.

Wishing you luck. 15 years is awesome.

JaylaaKent

Be glad and grateful you came back. Some don't.

Johnston

I found it very hard to stop drinking after breaking a ~19 year abstinence. It is possible though and you can do it. Have faith in yourself and try to envision where you want to be in the future. I'll have 2 years abs on Jan 9th.

ru12

Maybe it is time to try something new?

You don't lose your sober time. This isn't some contest, this is life. I'm glad you are sober today... you are sober in the NOW and that is all we really have anyway.