Relapsed, but back.
 

Hey all-

Just wanted to give you all a quick shout-out. I did relapse. New sobriety date is 11/01/13. I did immediately tell my sponsor and my groups in AA. Been sober since, but haven't stopped back here to say what was up. Ego and pride definitely played a big part. One of my largest character defects is people pleasing, and wanting them to think I'm doing better than I actually am.

It happened. I'm not proud of it and wish I could take it back, but as we all know, that's not a possibility. As much as I don't want to be an alcoholic or drug addict sometimes, I can't change it. Life does go on, just a big let down for myself.

Staying on the beam, and really am trying my best, but yet again 3rd step struggles seem to be cropping into my life more frequently.

I love you all, and hope to see you more frequently again around here. This place definitely helped keep me centered daily.

Welcome back!!!!!! So glad to see you!! You helped me so much my first attempt. I'm back also just lately, I'm on day 6 and kicking!

Hi Fernaceman! I remember you -- welcome back and keep focused on the middle of the path!

Welcome back FM :)

D

Thanks, ya'll.

@ D - I was wondering how long it would take before you said something here...that was uber quick. LOL :)

It's great to see you back, I had often wondered about you.

Stay close...posting regularly definitely helps I reckon x

Fern

hay Bro nice to see you again. yea i have that ego of pleasing and having something to prove to people also. but good thing is you got back on that horse. nice to see you Bro. hang in there.

Glad you are back!

Thanks for checking in Fern, I've missed you! :hug:

Welcome back! It's good to see you again.

Glad you are back, take care

Welcome back FM. No need to people please with me. It seems to me that the most important thing is to help or be helped…. in that order. I’m glad you're back.

Hello Fern, enjoyed your posts in the past, and I know I will continue to do so. Glad you're back.
Is there something different you are going to do, or something you are going to do differently? How are you looking at it?

Good to see you FernaceMan! What happened? I remember reading your one year post not too long ago. So glad you made it back here and congratulations on your over one-month mark. I applaud you!!! :c011:

What happened? Hmm, I've pondered this many times...It comes down to getting the urge to drink, wanting to drink, and then taking the drink. There were plenty of opportunities for me to stop myself and call someone or do the right thing, but it comes down to a bad series of decisions.

It's wonderful to have you back. :)

That little voice sure can be a persuasive, and relentless, varmint.

D

I don't think a relapse needs to be see all negative. I'm sure you learned a lot from it. It goes in the backpack of experience. Next time you have an urge you will better equipped. What matters is that you got back up and are here in the now moment.

Glad your'e back Fern. I also relapsed. Day 6. It's hard to come back and admit but these are the people who understand!!

As has been said , it's not how many times you are knocked down it's how many times you get up...

I am 6 days now, I am very pleased and proud