My quest to quit drinking for good.
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My quest to quit drinking for good.
Hello everyone, I'm proud to say that I have not drank since Sunday 12/4/13. I'm exited to be part of this group of supportive folks. I'm going to try to use these forums and my family as my main/only means of recovery. AA is not out of the question however I want to try here 1st. I will go to AA if need be before I will drink again. I must quit no other way to look at it. I have elevated liver enzymes. Had a ultrasound and was diagnosed with enlarged liver with fatty deposits. Went to have it checked due to abdominal pain. I drank since age 18 and now I'm 36. Some bad choices were made!
I have also had chronic headaches for the last 15 years. Drinking was my excuse not to care and try to drown out the pain. It doesn't work! I think that's how I became addicted. That and it was accepted by all my friends growing up. We thought it was cool and drank a lot even before we were of age. More bad choices.
So it's day 3 and I have some major liver pains that seem worse now then ever. A friend of mine said it's probably the liver healing itself and that's why it hurts. Not sure if that's common or true?
I feel OK most of the time other then the ab pain. No shakes or anything thank God. I have been trying to quit for the past 3 months and usually would stumble after a week. the longest I have went clean was 3 weeks. I ruined that run last week. This time I can't go back to boozing. Sometimes I feel unwell and the fear grips me then I start feeling worse. Sort of a runaway anxiety problem that I have had for years. I mostly thought it was from always drinking the day before. Now I wonder why I have anxiety when I'm getting sober. It might be withdrawal I'm not sure. I'm Trying to stay busy to keep my mind occupied. Getting more chores done around the house for sure.
I will check in every so often even if God forbid I drink again. Thanks for listening. God bless you all.
I have also had chronic headaches for the last 15 years. Drinking was my excuse not to care and try to drown out the pain. It doesn't work! I think that's how I became addicted. That and it was accepted by all my friends growing up. We thought it was cool and drank a lot even before we were of age. More bad choices.
So it's day 3 and I have some major liver pains that seem worse now then ever. A friend of mine said it's probably the liver healing itself and that's why it hurts. Not sure if that's common or true?
I feel OK most of the time other then the ab pain. No shakes or anything thank God. I have been trying to quit for the past 3 months and usually would stumble after a week. the longest I have went clean was 3 weeks. I ruined that run last week. This time I can't go back to boozing. Sometimes I feel unwell and the fear grips me then I start feeling worse. Sort of a runaway anxiety problem that I have had for years. I mostly thought it was from always drinking the day before. Now I wonder why I have anxiety when I'm getting sober. It might be withdrawal I'm not sure. I'm Trying to stay busy to keep my mind occupied. Getting more chores done around the house for sure.
I will check in every so often even if God forbid I drink again. Thanks for listening. God bless you all.
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Originally Posted by Need2try 
I have elevated liver enzymes. Had a ultrasound and was diagnosed with enlarged liver with fatty deposits. Went to have it checked due to abdominal pain.
So it's day 3 and I have some major liver pains that seem worse now then ever.
I feel OK most of the time other then the ab pain.
just to be honest with you -- your liver issue is very serious
the best thing you can do now is to never have another drink
sites such as this will be of much help
you mentioned possible AA -- it won't hurt -- many have recovered there
the wife and I just a couple of weeks back
lost our in his 60's friend due to liver failure
truth is -- you have some terrible signs for a young man
usually liver problems show up much later in a drinkers life
I have also done some life changing damage to myself
best for us to stay sober today
or -- something worse may happen to us
once severely damaged the liver does not repair itself that well
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You are right Mountainman I do have to watch it. I need a few more posts before I can respond to your PM.
There is no going back to it. It's quit or die. No in between.
Day 4 is going better and pain seems to be a bit less. When I went for 3 weeks I had no pain at all twards the end. That's why I went back to it thinking I beat it. I pretended that moderation was in my power. IT'S NOT! Pain came back with a vengeance. I should not be surprised about that. Booze and me are not friends anymore. It's strange what addiction will make us do to ourselves.
There is no going back to it. It's quit or die. No in between.
Day 4 is going better and pain seems to be a bit less. When I went for 3 weeks I had no pain at all twards the end. That's why I went back to it thinking I beat it. I pretended that moderation was in my power. IT'S NOT! Pain came back with a vengeance. I should not be surprised about that. Booze and me are not friends anymore. It's strange what addiction will make us do to ourselves.
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DAY 14
I think I'm out of the woods for the real bad times. My liver pains are for the most part gone. I have been eating right and taking milk thistle and green tea. I do have those tired moments but I suppose this is normal. Cravings are not bad if I just find a project to work on to occupy my time. Productivity is my new friend. I can only imagine what day 45 or 90 will be like. I know that I can't go back to drinking because I can't control myself. Just thought I would check in with the good report. If I can quit anyone can. Have a great week everyone.
I think I'm out of the woods for the real bad times. My liver pains are for the most part gone. I have been eating right and taking milk thistle and green tea. I do have those tired moments but I suppose this is normal. Cravings are not bad if I just find a project to work on to occupy my time. Productivity is my new friend. I can only imagine what day 45 or 90 will be like. I know that I can't go back to drinking because I can't control myself. Just thought I would check in with the good report. If I can quit anyone can. Have a great week everyone.
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Welcome to SR,
I use this site in addition to reading recovery books, and I find it works great. There is so much support and resource information on the forums, I find it's a perfect place for people who want to battle their addictions.
Like someone else said, our bodies have a tremendous ability to heal once we stop putting this poison into them. It's very much an unnatural thing, when we think about it logically, to ingest poison. It does take time, based on what people have been saying, but it is definitely worth it. Even after only 30 days sober, I'm more mentally aware and not so much in a haze. It's quite wonderful, actually.
I use this site in addition to reading recovery books, and I find it works great. There is so much support and resource information on the forums, I find it's a perfect place for people who want to battle their addictions.
Like someone else said, our bodies have a tremendous ability to heal once we stop putting this poison into them. It's very much an unnatural thing, when we think about it logically, to ingest poison. It does take time, based on what people have been saying, but it is definitely worth it. Even after only 30 days sober, I'm more mentally aware and not so much in a haze. It's quite wonderful, actually.
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