Just went to the store
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Just went to the store
To buy beer but didn't. I changed my mind when I got there. I'm worried about tomorrow though. I just can't get any relief. I've already taken 1.5 Ambien when I'm only supposed to take 1. Worried this is considered a relapse already. And the worst part is I don't think I care.
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Yea I told them today I wasn't coming. I know they are upset/angry. Oh well.
I am seeing a counselor but they aren't helping much. It's frustrating bc I don't feel like she addresses the real issues, and I'm paying her. I'm going to try a new one out.
I am seeing a counselor but they aren't helping much. It's frustrating bc I don't feel like she addresses the real issues, and I'm paying her. I'm going to try a new one out.
Hey Mirage, just catching up on this thread and thinking about you.
Know you've been having a bit of a rough go of late. Stick with it, you'll get through it and hopefully get some help with your anxiety and depression. I know that's a b!tch but it is fixable.
Anyway, just wanted to let you know that you're on my mind. Check in when you can.
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Know you've been having a bit of a rough go of late. Stick with it, you'll get through it and hopefully get some help with your anxiety and depression. I know that's a b!tch but it is fixable.
Anyway, just wanted to let you know that you're on my mind. Check in when you can.
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Thanks Ptacote, things were better today. I think maybe what I'm going through is a combination of maybe PAWS, the holidays, and some depression/anxiety. I'm glad I didn't drink last night. I was convinced it was a good idea. Hope things are going good for you too, thx for the thought
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First off, good job on not following through with buying the beer. There are many, myself included, who proscribe to the idea that we relapse mentally before we actually pick up a drink.
It sounds like you've taken some concrete steps towards an actual relapse. Do you have a plan to reel yourself back into recovery mode?
It sounds like you've taken some concrete steps towards an actual relapse. Do you have a plan to reel yourself back into recovery mode?
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I don't know, I don't know what to do. I feel like people are resistant to change, and change means me getting better. So if people are resistant to that, I've got a problem on my hands. Really at a loss about what to do
Change makes many people uncomfortable. But in regards to your happiness, you've got to start living your life for yourself, and nobody else. For you, that means a life free from alcohol, and perhaps some other changes as well. If you don't start doing that now...when will you? We often see change as a dangerous thing...but for us alcoholics, it's "not changing" that is the real danger. Good luck, stay strong, stay sober.
People in my life were resistant to change too - but it's our life Mirage, and we only get one of them.
I changed my life, got rid of as many toxic folks as I could (including family) and met people who support me being happy and becoming all I can be.
Maybe that's a way forward for you too?
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I changed my life, got rid of as many toxic folks as I could (including family) and met people who support me being happy and becoming all I can be.
Maybe that's a way forward for you too?
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