Sigh. Here I go......
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Sigh. Here I go......
Long story short:
Been drinking daily for about 4 years.
Have stopped and started dozens of times, with my longest break of about 2 weeks.
Struggle, struggle, and struggle some more.
Then my brother got cancer. And he died last month (at age 35).
My emotions are wrecked, my brain is broken, and I'm drinking at an unparalleled pace for me (approx 12 pack a day).
I'm self employed, with a beautiful family and thriving business. But personally, I'm destroyed.
I am just checking in here to chronicle my decision to quit. I've employed counseling and an accountability partner for this attempt, as I know I can't keep doing this to myself as well as my family.
That's it. It's time. Thanks for providing a great resource for discussion. Any questions - just ask!
Been drinking daily for about 4 years.
Have stopped and started dozens of times, with my longest break of about 2 weeks.
Struggle, struggle, and struggle some more.
Then my brother got cancer. And he died last month (at age 35).
My emotions are wrecked, my brain is broken, and I'm drinking at an unparalleled pace for me (approx 12 pack a day).
I'm self employed, with a beautiful family and thriving business. But personally, I'm destroyed.
I am just checking in here to chronicle my decision to quit. I've employed counseling and an accountability partner for this attempt, as I know I can't keep doing this to myself as well as my family.
That's it. It's time. Thanks for providing a great resource for discussion. Any questions - just ask!
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In that case I want to remind you that Psalms 34:18 tells us that The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. He is still there and loves you. Keep seeking Him and TRUST in Him even when it feels so hopeless and dark. He WILL see you through this, just as He has done with me.
to SR! I'm glad you found us and joined the family.
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Originally Posted by ttugrad1793 
Long story short:
Been drinking daily for about 4 years.
Have stopped and started dozens of times, with my longest break of about 2 weeks.
Struggle, struggle, and struggle some more.
Then my brother got cancer. And he died last month (at age 35).
My emotions are wrecked, my brain is broken, and I'm drinking at an unparalleled pace for me (approx 12 pack a day).
I'm self employed, with a beautiful family and thriving business. But personally, I'm destroyed.
I am just checking in here to chronicle my decision to quit. I've employed counseling and an accountability partner for this attempt, as I know I can't keep doing this to myself as well as my family.
That's it. It's time. Thanks for providing a great resource for discussion. Any questions - just ask!
Been drinking daily for about 4 years.
Have stopped and started dozens of times, with my longest break of about 2 weeks.
Struggle, struggle, and struggle some more.
Then my brother got cancer. And he died last month (at age 35).
My emotions are wrecked, my brain is broken, and I'm drinking at an unparalleled pace for me (approx 12 pack a day).
I'm self employed, with a beautiful family and thriving business. But personally, I'm destroyed.
I am just checking in here to chronicle my decision to quit. I've employed counseling and an accountability partner for this attempt, as I know I can't keep doing this to myself as well as my family.
That's it. It's time. Thanks for providing a great resource for discussion. Any questions - just ask!
Welcome ttu, you will find a lot of support and help here. I'm sorry for the loss of your brother, and I understand your sadness, but remember he is gone now and you cannot bring him back. You still have family that needs the "full" you, not the drinking "you". I think your brother would want you to move forward and make the best of the life you have.
Since you're a Christian man, have you considered AA? It's a spiritual program, so you may find it fits in with your beliefs. I'd suggest attending a few meetings just to see if it might be for you.
Whatever you do, stick around this site. You will find a lot of kindred spirits here.
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Grief was a huge issue with me and drinking.
It's been one month since yer brother's death.
I am so very sorry.
I really hope you can be gentle with yourself and grab hold of some hands that come yer way.
Take care,
Lethe
<---who's heavily edited this one! Grieving still some days. And that's ok.
It's been one month since yer brother's death.
I am so very sorry.
I really hope you can be gentle with yourself and grab hold of some hands that come yer way.
Take care,
Lethe
<---who's heavily edited this one! Grieving still some days. And that's ok.
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Hi ttugrad. I'm so glad you found SR and joined us. This is a great place for support & friendship.
I'm sorry you lost your brother, and I know how tempting it is to get numb to push the grief away. The thing is, it doesn't work. All we get is a temporary break - then the emotions hit us twice as hard. Grieving is important and necessary - I'm sure you already know that. I'm happy that you reached out and sought help to get through this. Your brother would never want to be the cause of your pain and suffering. I hope you'll honor him by living the best life you possibly can. We know you can do it.
I'm sorry you lost your brother, and I know how tempting it is to get numb to push the grief away. The thing is, it doesn't work. All we get is a temporary break - then the emotions hit us twice as hard. Grieving is important and necessary - I'm sure you already know that. I'm happy that you reached out and sought help to get through this. Your brother would never want to be the cause of your pain and suffering. I hope you'll honor him by living the best life you possibly can. We know you can do it.
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thats a tough loss. when your at your wits end lean on God He'll pull you through no problem. But keep in mind sometimes being close to Him is right where He wants you. That being said in the future run to Him first rather then the bottle. I know I chose the bottle first many many many times. Once I was rescued from booze the light when on and I realized I did not have to choose booze anymore.
Hang in there your've been through a difficult loss just get yourself healthy. 35 *sigh* thats how old I am and I quit booze and cigarettes partly becuase I was terrified of getting cancer. I still am.
Hang in there your've been through a difficult loss just get yourself healthy. 35 *sigh* thats how old I am and I quit booze and cigarettes partly becuase I was terrified of getting cancer. I still am.
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
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Originally Posted by ttugrad1793
Long story short:
Then my brother got cancer. And he died last month (at age 35).
My emotions are wrecked, my brain is broken, and I'm drinking at an unparalleled pace for me (approx 12 pack a day).
I'm self employed, with a beautiful family and thriving business. But personally, I'm destroyed.
!
Then my brother got cancer. And he died last month (at age 35).
My emotions are wrecked, my brain is broken, and I'm drinking at an unparalleled pace for me (approx 12 pack a day).
I'm self employed, with a beautiful family and thriving business. But personally, I'm destroyed.
!
But the longer I stay away from the drink, the more whole I become.
And the more I lean on the incredible people here, the more less destroyed I am.
Humility is our greatest asset for it is in our weakness, that we find our most valuable strengths.
Glad you're here.
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