Sigh. Here I go......
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hurting.
My entire plan was for a good 90 days of sobriety leading up to a cruise my wife and I had planned. I made it approximately 50 days and then fell apart.
So here I sit ready to go on the cruise TOMORROW, and am just exhausted.
Do I just give up and drink on the cruise and start another 90 days when I get back?
or do I man up and use the cruise as a good time to focus on my health?
I dunno. But a good 6 weeks of drinking really, really SUCKS.
My entire plan was for a good 90 days of sobriety leading up to a cruise my wife and I had planned. I made it approximately 50 days and then fell apart.
So here I sit ready to go on the cruise TOMORROW, and am just exhausted.
Do I just give up and drink on the cruise and start another 90 days when I get back?
or do I man up and use the cruise as a good time to focus on my health?
I dunno. But a good 6 weeks of drinking really, really SUCKS.
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Going 50 days is amazing. You can do it again. Go for it! I had to stop letting life/plans get in the way and just quit. No time or place is going to be perfect. I never tried more than 30 days and it always sucked crossing days off the calendar. Then finally I tried settling in for the long term one day (or minute) at a time, knowing that no craving could be as bad as the shame and sickness of my drinking. Furthermore, the cravings go away whereas drinking seems to have some new discomfort to discover every day!
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Don't drink, there are meetings on the ships, they are called friends of Bill W. I am going on a cruise myself into weeks and plan on attending a meeting every day. I figure the vacation be more enjoyable if I'm not spending the whole day hung over.
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I'm back.
I swayed back and forth all spring, would clean up for brief spurts, and then would fall off the cliff. Time and time and time again.
I'm coming up on two terribly hard dates for me: my brother's birthday in August, and then the anniversary of his death in September. That will complete my year of "FIRSTS".
This has just been a miserable journey, and I'll be the first to admit I've made it harder on myself than I needed to. It's the age old excuse amongst drunks: I just don't want to FEEL. I want to escape. But here I sit, almost a year later, and I haven't made any progress and am still left to face the very thing I have run from.
Not much to add: Today is Day 1. Again. I love my life, and want to embrace it. Thanks in advance.
I swayed back and forth all spring, would clean up for brief spurts, and then would fall off the cliff. Time and time and time again.
I'm coming up on two terribly hard dates for me: my brother's birthday in August, and then the anniversary of his death in September. That will complete my year of "FIRSTS".
This has just been a miserable journey, and I'll be the first to admit I've made it harder on myself than I needed to. It's the age old excuse amongst drunks: I just don't want to FEEL. I want to escape. But here I sit, almost a year later, and I haven't made any progress and am still left to face the very thing I have run from.
Not much to add: Today is Day 1. Again. I love my life, and want to embrace it. Thanks in advance.
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Hi TTU
What are you going to do differently this time? Have you looked into a recovery group like AA or Rational Recovery? Or therapy? The age old adage, doing the same thing and expecting different results applies with our drinking too.
It is hard, I lost my mom a few years back and I drank at it and never properly mourned her until I got sober.
You can do this. But just like your business, you have to have a direction and goal in place to be successful.
Welcome back!
What are you going to do differently this time? Have you looked into a recovery group like AA or Rational Recovery? Or therapy? The age old adage, doing the same thing and expecting different results applies with our drinking too.
It is hard, I lost my mom a few years back and I drank at it and never properly mourned her until I got sober.
You can do this. But just like your business, you have to have a direction and goal in place to be successful.
Welcome back!
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Not sure really what to do differently. I'm not an AA-guy, but I am in counseling. I was in the counseling when this began, and it helped tremendously, but then it morphed into marriage counseling, and now that the issue there is better, it's moving back to this.
I'm doubling down spiritually, which also was very helpful to me early on.
I'm doubling down spiritually, which also was very helpful to me early on.
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Originally Posted by ttugrad1793 
This has just been a miserable journey, and I'll be the first to admit I've made it harder on myself than I needed to. It's the age old excuse amongst drunks: I just don't want to FEEL. I want to escape. But here I sit, almost a year later, and I haven't made any progress and am still left to face the very thing I have run from.
Not much to add: Today is Day 1. Again. I love my life, and want to embrace it. Thanks in advance.
Not much to add: Today is Day 1. Again. I love my life, and want to embrace it. Thanks in advance.
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Originally Posted by SonomaGal
I disagree, it seems you've made a lot of progress!! You've just got to find a way to acknowledge and shut down the thoughts, feelings, and screw it mentality that causes you to slip once you're in the longer stretches of sobriety. The first few months are IMHO the hardest around cravings and slipping back to "get relief, relax or numb". Find as much support as you can, and try to accept that early quitting can be like running a marathon with rocks on your back. The longer you go, the better you can identify and remove the rocks, and pretty soon you're a running machine. The most important thing is to have faith in time, it will get easier if you give it time, and don't give in. Rooting for you!
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