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Old 10-23-2013, 06:41 AM
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Originally Posted by jvice09 View Post
just wondering, maybe a horror story will scare me straight..
If you haven't experienced the YETS yet? Your'e Eligible To;

I have not been fired YET
I have not gotten a DUI YET
I have not been hospitalized YET
I have not gone to jail YET
I have not lost my family YET
I have not been homeless YET
I have not been Institutionalized YET
I have not died from this disease YET
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Old 10-23-2013, 07:05 AM
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If you haven't experienced the YETS yet? Your'e Eligible To; I have not been fired YET I have not gotten a DUI YET I have not been hospitalized YET I have not gone to jail YET I have not lost my family YET I have not been homeless YET I have not been Institutionalized YET I have not died from this disease YET
I need to be reminded of this everyday.... Thank you
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Old 10-23-2013, 07:17 AM
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Originally Posted by Boleo View Post
If you haven't experienced the YETS yet? Your'e Eligible To;

I have not been fired YET
I have not gotten a DUI YET
I have not been hospitalized YET
I have not gone to jail YET
I have not lost my family YET
I have not been homeless YET
I have not been Institutionalized YET
I have not died from this disease YET


I could check off 3 of the yets, I don't doubt that some here could check off more.
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Old 10-23-2013, 07:46 AM
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1litre of vodka a day, for even short amounts of time can mean spontaneously bleeding to death without any pre-warning. I've seen it. It scares the hell out of me, because death scares me.
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Old 10-23-2013, 08:27 AM
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Originally Posted by jvice09 View Post
just wondering, maybe a horror story will scare me straight..
No. It won't. Not if you're an alcoholic. You can't reason with alcoholism and you can't scare it alcoholism. It's unreasonable to think you can. If that's what you're waiting for, you have a lot more drinking to do.
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Old 10-23-2013, 10:45 AM
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im back, gotta deal with all the texts i sent out when i was hammered. not fun.
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Old 10-23-2013, 10:47 AM
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Hi jvice, Watch the youtube video "Drugged..high on alcohol" and the series of 10 called "Rain in the Heart". They are the real deal. Sending you love.
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Old 10-23-2013, 10:49 AM
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i sent out some real ones though, so im not too worried about it
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Old 10-23-2013, 10:51 AM
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Hi jvice, Watch the youtube video "Drugged..high on alcohol" and the series of 10 called "Rain in the Heart". They are the real deal. Sending you love.
seen them both. a few times.
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Old 10-23-2013, 06:07 PM
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i ran out of vodka. i wont drive drunk to get more. im counting my lucky stars i never got a dui.
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Old 10-23-2013, 06:18 PM
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i need to eat something. i dropped 20 lbs and puked everything out of my stomach.
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Old 10-23-2013, 06:25 PM
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i ran out of vodka. i wont drive drunk to get more. im counting my lucky stars i never got a dui.
or killed someone driving.

But you are on your way to killing yourself. I care about you, and want you to get out of this cycle. Please think about making a plan.
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Old 10-23-2013, 06:36 PM
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Originally Posted by jvice09 View Post
i need to eat something. i dropped 20 lbs and puked everything out of my stomach.
imo JVICE , your not looking for a wake-up call. That is your EXCUSE for not quitting,Unfortunately your wake-up call might be the end of your life or someone else s. The WAKE_UP call is in your own head, Only you can make this happen. Try doing it without hurting anyone, especially yourself ....if you are REALLY ready!
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Old 10-23-2013, 06:46 PM
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Jvice, instead of horror stories, try reading some success stories on SR, and see how truly wonderful sobriety can be. Praying for you.
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Old 10-23-2013, 06:46 PM
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Hi jv, Let me try to shift your thinking a bit. I will answer your question about how bad it can get, well for me anyway, in a bit.

Instead of asking how bad it can get, why not try asking how good things can be? I sleep a full, restful 8 hours a night now. I wake up feeling well, no hangover, no shakes or anxiety, no upset stomach, no vomiting, no headache. I do not have to reach for a bottle when I wake up anymore; choking down a few slugs of booze to calm the horrendous shaking and blind horror of facing yet another day. I remember the night before and the things I remember are actually generally good things! I don't have to worry if I have enough booze around to last through the night. I do things, fun things with my friends and family. I have peace. Heck, I just landed a job today. I could go on and on. It really does get better, physically, mentally, and emotionally.

So, how bad can it get? Well, I didn't drink as much as you are but it did become every day around the clock. Physically, I was a mess. Hospitalized 7 or 8 times in an 18 month period, detoxes that got worse and worse, shaking so badly I could not get a vodka bottle to my lips. Once, I actually poured some on the kitchen counter and lapped it up like a dog. Nice, huh? Let's see; two DUIs, spending a few days in jail, losing two very well paying jobs, one of which I held for 16 years. Seeing how scared and crushed my wife, son, parents and sisters were. Being told by many doctors that I was dying. Drinking two bottles of vanilla extract the night I got home from a detox because I was still shaking. Cutting my wrist while in a blackout. My wife committed me at the psych ward but I convinced them to let me go. I started drinking again as soon as I got home.

So, yeah, it can get pretty bad. But when you decide to stop, decide you don't want that crap anymore, it can get pretty damn good.
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Old 10-23-2013, 07:00 PM
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The last two posters make a great point.

I don't think there's much point in telling you you're not ready jvice - if you're anything like I was, there's a part of you that loves to hear that.

I'm not clairvoyant - I have no idea whether you're ready or not - but I think the fact you;re hanging around here means *something*.

I hope people will share with you some of the positive aspects of recovery.

I like being a man who I can look at in the eyes in the mirror. I expect you'd like that too.

I was the lowest of the low all day everyday, stumble around the neighbourhood drunk. I was one rent cheque away from being homeless.

It took a lot of effort, a lot of change,. and a lot of support but no more effort than I was using to stay drunk.

I turned it around - you can too - It's not beyond you, at all

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Old 10-23-2013, 07:34 PM
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i cant sleep.. i drink every single night to pass out. i could easially stay up for 4-5 days in a row. it sucks. this started before i was even drinking too.
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Old 10-23-2013, 07:49 PM
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maybe it's time to see a Dr Jvice?

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Old 10-23-2013, 08:16 PM
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What I know is, it gets worse and worse until you die.

Unless you do something.

But the worst it gets is horror show stuff with your family and business mates, maybe violence or drunken driving, maybe life in prison for vehicular manslaughter... but if you escape all that, you will ruin your health and die an ugly bloated stinking carcass.

So, Cheers!
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Old 10-23-2013, 09:28 PM
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maybe it's time to see a Dr Jvice?

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your right. this has to end. its not normal
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