Lost, Working on Found..
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Lost, Working on Found..
After nearly 10 Months of insightful sobriety in and out of AA, my life over the course of this spring & summer has spiraled into chaos.
I am one of the lucky ones, as I have suffered no major lifestyle effects, I haven't yet lost my wife, my daughter or my career, but the physical effects are becoming crippling..
I have applied for an outpatient detox tomorrow near my home, as I do have hereditary high blood pressure and anxiety disorder from even before I ever picked up a drink.
I'm posting here because of the last few months of reading here I have read many stories of hope, bravery and recovery.
I'm still drinking heavily even writing this, because I can't function, sleep or even feel mentally capable after work without drinking, but I pray that my resolve will be strong in the morning. I remember hearing stories about people like me in meetings and thought I would never be a member of the majority that fall out of sobriety.
I am one of the lucky ones, as I have suffered no major lifestyle effects, I haven't yet lost my wife, my daughter or my career, but the physical effects are becoming crippling..
I have applied for an outpatient detox tomorrow near my home, as I do have hereditary high blood pressure and anxiety disorder from even before I ever picked up a drink.
I'm posting here because of the last few months of reading here I have read many stories of hope, bravery and recovery.
I'm still drinking heavily even writing this, because I can't function, sleep or even feel mentally capable after work without drinking, but I pray that my resolve will be strong in the morning. I remember hearing stories about people like me in meetings and thought I would never be a member of the majority that fall out of sobriety.
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Welcome RealSLC12 
I became very heavily reliant on alcohol - for everything.
I hope as you read around you'll find it's not only possible to function, sleep and feel mentally capable without alcohol, but that it's preferable not to
D
I became very heavily reliant on alcohol - for everything.
I hope as you read around you'll find it's not only possible to function, sleep and feel mentally capable without alcohol, but that it's preferable not to
D
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Originally Posted by RealSLC12 
After nearly 10 Months of insightful sobriety in and out of AA, my life over the course of this spring & summer has spiraled into chaos.
I am one of the lucky ones, as I have suffered no major lifestyle effects, I haven't yet lost my wife, my daughter or my career, but the physical effects are becoming crippling..
I have applied for an outpatient detox tomorrow near my home, as I do have hereditary high blood pressure and anxiety disorder from even before I ever picked up a drink.
I'm posting here because of the last few months of reading here I have read many stories of hope, bravery and recovery.
I'm still drinking heavily even writing this, because I can't function, sleep or even feel mentally capable after work without drinking, but I pray that my resolve will be strong in the morning. I remember hearing stories about people like me in meetings and thought I would never be a member of the majority that fall out of sobriety.
I am one of the lucky ones, as I have suffered no major lifestyle effects, I haven't yet lost my wife, my daughter or my career, but the physical effects are becoming crippling..
I have applied for an outpatient detox tomorrow near my home, as I do have hereditary high blood pressure and anxiety disorder from even before I ever picked up a drink.
I'm posting here because of the last few months of reading here I have read many stories of hope, bravery and recovery.
I'm still drinking heavily even writing this, because I can't function, sleep or even feel mentally capable after work without drinking, but I pray that my resolve will be strong in the morning. I remember hearing stories about people like me in meetings and thought I would never be a member of the majority that fall out of sobriety.
The psysical and mental effects ,were more than I could stand then ,Not correct - but I was determined to quit ,or f-ing die trying .
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Hi Real, For me, I needed a week of not having to go anywhere. I could not function due to the withdrawals. I'm glad you are going to the outpatient detox. Also try to take a week off work. Very best wishes to you. I was able to get sober. Accept that you cannot drink. That is the main thing.
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