joey8262

Hi folks, I'm back again !!

I was dry for a few months and then for some unknown reason a few weeks ago I hit the skids again-just with beer, I went straight to my doctor for my acamprosate and he gave me a month's worth-when the 3rd week was up I asked him for a repeat script-I've been on it before when I was discharged from inpatient detox so I know it's not a problem me getting it.

HOWEVER, he point blank refused me it-and the end result being-I ended up worse-the story goes on.

on speaking to my alcohol consultant, she agreed to put me on a course of librium and told me to speak to my doctor again-he again refused, so tonight I've done the most STUPID thing I've done in a long time and willingly picked a beer up-I've drunk about half of one-4% alc but now feeling really guilty.

my thoughts on the subject is that medical professionals are paid to help you, not just to rush you out of the door.

my main worry now is that I've had my daily dose of librium and now I'm petrified of the consequences-I have to admit I picked it up in temper as it seems as hard as I'm trying I'm just hitting a brick wall-I've been doing great and now I just feel so crap about myself and scared I just don't know what to do-apart from tip the rest of this away.

sorry about the rant guys but just needed to vent and have always been able to talk openly on here.

thanks.

Joey.

visch1

Hi. Unfortunately I identify too much with you when I got to AA. I was rebellions, immature, knew far more than any doctor and felt bad for myself so was very angry. How dare do these professionals not do what I want? I continued trying to do things my way until I surrendered on started following DIRECTIONS to recovery. It started with getting HONEST with myself. Honestly things, me, started to get better. BE WLL

joey8262

I'm not saying I know better than the professionals-but I know in my own mind whats works for me-even the medical stall in the health centre told me they thought he was in the wrong-am not saying he was an idiot but if he would have looked at my clinical history then he would have concluded what was the best course of treatment for me-but NO-he stopped my treatment COMPLETELY. I had to go over his head officially and seek help elsewhere-and what did they do ? GAVE ME THE EXACT TREATMENT HE REFUSED ME.

not want to sound pedantic but he's my physician-is he not supposed to be to date and aware of my condition ?

Carlotta

Then why are you still drinking and why can't you maintain sobriety?
Librium is to be used only during the first few days of sobriety. Obviously your physician saw the writings on the walls that you were using the librium as a crutch and that you were on your way to being addicted.
Good for him.

joey8262

yes, the librium stopped me drinking with the acamprosate as a continuing support-to keep me away from the beer-but once I asked him to give me more acamprosate-NOT librium, obviously librium is highly addictive-but the acamprosate is a different matter-it stops the craving.

my point being-my liver specialist had no problem whatsoever with giving me the acamprosate as she knows it has 100% helped me in the past.

it wasn't the librium that I wanted-it was the acamprosate-which he clearly knew.