Lifewillgetbet

I relapsed for 6 days. It was pretty epic. I though I would enjoy drinking but I was completely miserable. I did not have a good time. I had a bunch of emotions that crept up, mostly do to failure. So if your thinking that having a drink will make you feel better? It wont. Your going to feel like crap. You will have 1 drink, then 50 more. Then you will probably stop counting because you are so hammered.

I have a pretty easy going Doctor that I have told my life story to, and he did a full physical on me. I had to ask him to get me off the alcohol safely. He gave me Valium for 3 days.
WOW. I have to take Taxi Cabs everywhere because the Valium destroys me. My Doctor didn't tell me to stay in bed for 3 days. In retrospect I should have taken 3 days off work.

So I'm documenting my relapse. It was stupid and ridiculous. It was pathetic. I'm going back to treatment. Every time I go to treatment it costs me $30,000. It sux. However long it takes. I hate being on Valium, and I hate drinking.

So for everybody that is thinking of taking a quick drink to solve your temporary emotional problems. DONT DO IT!!!!

SpringsEternal

So sorry to hear of your downfall. I've often thought it would be a grand thing if we could somehow cram all the feelings/sensations/outcomes/regret that we suffer as a result of an epic bender into a pill, or something. Such that we might get a brief immediate reminder of what we will be looking forward to, with great painful clarity, as a result of running to the drink again. Indeed, that quick drink to solve temporary problems ultimately creates a landslide of other problems that will potentially 'need' medicating too.......All good things to you on the next step, friend.

Isaiah

The good news as always is that this is just the aftermath of the relapse, it's also the point where you can make a new go at it. There needn't be any reason to ever have to go through this again.

All the best.

Lifewillgetbet

Thanks for the kind words of encouragement.

TorontoGuy28

Hang in there... Don't beat yourself up over it, learn and move on.

jkb

Thanks for the post. Sorry to hear all of that but, I still often think..."just one or two" so it is an excellent reminder.
Remember falling does not have to mean failing.... Jess

Lifewillgetbet

Thanks. I don't fully understand why I like to play with fire. Especially having sensitive skin.
My Rehab friends want nothing to do with me because I relapsed.

Im going to sleep this stupid relapse away while taking all all the ******** Valium.
A lot of Valium.

fantail

Hey, I'm in the same boat. I just had a two day relapse and I am now a wreck, just waiting for this hangover to be over.

We can do this!

Lifewillgetbet

Well thanks for replying. I opted out of dealing with the "hang over" and went to my Doctor to get medication. I had to get med as I'm seizure prone. I have had seizures before. Not fun.
The Valium makes me a bit wobbly. I don't like Valium, the alternative is Dilantin. I would rather drink then take Dilantin.
My Doctor seems pretty satisfied in his treatment. I'm just super tired.

fantail

If I lived in Canada I would have gone to the doctor too. Unfortunately I'm unemployed in the USA so I had to risk it. This morning I was really scared but after a nap I think the withdrawal is actually not as major as I was afraid it was. I'd just forgotten what hangovers felt like.

How many more days is your med cycle?

Dee74

For anyone in the USA

There are a lot of free or low cost clinics around - if there's one in your local area you might get some medical advice there?

Free/Low-Cost/Sliding-Scale Clinics
2-1-1 Call Center Search

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Lifewillgetbet

Hey,

For me, I am seizure prone for 3 days. 72 hours. My Doctor gives me 10 Valium. I take 4-5 on day 1, 3 on day two, and 2 on day 3. Plus I take Vitamin B1 and Vitamin B complex and a slew of Blood Pressure pills.

Keep in Mind that is what my Dr prescribed me, I'm 6 foot tall, 208 LB athletic build. I also competed in the Olympics so other then being a complete raging alcoholic, I am fairly healthy.

I don't think it really matters how much you sleep, or how good you currently feel. I had a seizure on day 3 of sobriety. I felt pretty good that day too. The seizure just hit me like a transport truck. I was completely blindsided.

I understand my alcoholism fairly well and I studied Business in University so Im not good at playing Doctor. Every time I play Doctor I fail at it.