Remind me again what this poison does to my body...
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
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Remind me again what this poison does to my body...
Jonseing. Not too bad , but a bit. For the old, spoiled grapes.
Remind me again what this insidious toxin does to my body.
And what tomorrow morning will do to my soul...
Remind me again what this insidious toxin does to my body.
And what tomorrow morning will do to my soul...
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Well, if you've been sober for a little while, any sort of balancing out that your neurotransmitters have done will be reversed... so it will be a waste. That was a very powerful motivator for me, and still is I think one of the biggest motivators. Knowing that my brain is healing and chemistry is becoming balanced out again. I don't want to undo all that work and go back to screwed up brain chemistry, and have to start all over.
Also, if you're anything like me... you have no idea if you'll wake up to stupid drunk text messages, twitter, or whatever other social media you take part in. Phone calls, etc.
Often, I'd wake up to a mess of food I'd strewn all over the kitchen, stove still going wide open, front door unlocked or even open.
If you're married or dating someone, you might wake up to a very pissed off individual... and might have no recollection of an argument or fight that took place.
Also, if you're anything like me... you have no idea if you'll wake up to stupid drunk text messages, twitter, or whatever other social media you take part in. Phone calls, etc.
Often, I'd wake up to a mess of food I'd strewn all over the kitchen, stove still going wide open, front door unlocked or even open.
If you're married or dating someone, you might wake up to a very pissed off individual... and might have no recollection of an argument or fight that took place.
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Originally Posted by alphaomega 
Jonseing. Not too bad , but a bit. For the old, spoiled grapes.
Remind me again what this insidious toxin does to my body.
And what tomorrow morning will do to my soul...
Remind me again what this insidious toxin does to my body.
And what tomorrow morning will do to my soul...
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Originally Posted by SoberJennie
Also, if you're anything like me... you have no idea if you'll wake up to stupid drunk text messages, twitter, or whatever other social media you take part in. Phone calls, etc.
Often, I'd wake up to a mess of food I'd strewn all over the kitchen, front door unlocked or even open.
I dont use facebook anymore as I used to send so many barely readable messages about 3am... I often wouldnt dare look at any replies afterwards...and no way would I want to see what I had written..
The amount of mess from middle of the night snacks....
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You might find a pretty good reminder here: http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post4004934
Cravings are no fun, but remember: they don't last forever, and each one you get through makes you a little stronger. You can do this!
Cravings are no fun, but remember: they don't last forever, and each one you get through makes you a little stronger. You can do this!
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hey AO
To be honest I found all the horror stories in the world didn't do a lot for me....
But I hated looking in the mirror and not recognizing the person looking back at me - not just physically, there was something fundamentally different about me - something visceral, something lesser, something unnerving.....
I wanted the old me back. I know you do too.
To be honest I found all the horror stories in the world didn't do a lot for me....
But I hated looking in the mirror and not recognizing the person looking back at me - not just physically, there was something fundamentally different about me - something visceral, something lesser, something unnerving.....
I wanted the old me back. I know you do too.
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Originally Posted by alphaomega
Meso - thanks. That scared the bejesus out of me. Exactly what the dr ordered.
Sometimes I feel like I need the positive enforcement, other times I feel like I need to have the [poop] scared out of me.
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You may wake in strange rooms with strange people.
Your head will pound as you try and recall your activities.
You will poison body, mind, and soul.
Your actions may reflect the worst of your nature, as intoxicated you vent.
You will crave alcohol's empty calories perhaps becoming emaciated or obese .
You will choose gross short term pleasure for long term pain.
Your word or honour may become phony addicted babble.
Days at work may be hungover and self esteem compromised.
Vomit, nausea, guilt,fear, and alienation will pave your way.
The hardest of lessons may be forgotten to the clink of ice in a frosty glass.
That's 10 for starters.
Your head will pound as you try and recall your activities.
You will poison body, mind, and soul.
Your actions may reflect the worst of your nature, as intoxicated you vent.
You will crave alcohol's empty calories perhaps becoming emaciated or obese .
You will choose gross short term pleasure for long term pain.
Your word or honour may become phony addicted babble.
Days at work may be hungover and self esteem compromised.
Vomit, nausea, guilt,fear, and alienation will pave your way.
The hardest of lessons may be forgotten to the clink of ice in a frosty glass.
That's 10 for starters.
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How about I using the riveting tale posted June 8th...by Alphaomega.
Oh ya...that's you.
"But then, about five hours later, all hell would break loose. But not just any hell. The seven levels of Hades would descend upon me in varying degrees starting at about 3:00 am.
Shocked and startled awake as I'm quite sure my CNS was borderline getting ready to shut down, I would receive a jolt of adrenaline so jarring I would literally feel like I had just been thrown in ice cold water. My heart would be pounding in my chest like it was begging for something to just settle it down. The thirst was inexplicable. The anxiety. The anxiety brought me to tears more than I care to remember. It's the anxiety that was the final tipping point back to sobriety. I simply could no longer live like that anymore.
As the day would rear its ugly face, I would assess if I was too hungover to go to work. Or if I could drag myself kicking and screaming to the shower which was an experience in and of itself. The panic in the shower would force me to leave the door open to get some air. The the toothbrush and I became fast enemies. Couldn't brush my teeth without gagging or the dry heaves. Sometimes I'd even throw up a little of my coffee. How lovely."
Oh ya...that's you.
"But then, about five hours later, all hell would break loose. But not just any hell. The seven levels of Hades would descend upon me in varying degrees starting at about 3:00 am.
Shocked and startled awake as I'm quite sure my CNS was borderline getting ready to shut down, I would receive a jolt of adrenaline so jarring I would literally feel like I had just been thrown in ice cold water. My heart would be pounding in my chest like it was begging for something to just settle it down. The thirst was inexplicable. The anxiety. The anxiety brought me to tears more than I care to remember. It's the anxiety that was the final tipping point back to sobriety. I simply could no longer live like that anymore.
As the day would rear its ugly face, I would assess if I was too hungover to go to work. Or if I could drag myself kicking and screaming to the shower which was an experience in and of itself. The panic in the shower would force me to leave the door open to get some air. The the toothbrush and I became fast enemies. Couldn't brush my teeth without gagging or the dry heaves. Sometimes I'd even throw up a little of my coffee. How lovely."
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Try this.
Rain In My Heart (1 of 10) - YouTube
Watch all ten episodes. Your cravings will fade and will be replaced with revulsion.
Rain In My Heart (1 of 10) - YouTube
Watch all ten episodes. Your cravings will fade and will be replaced with revulsion.
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