SassMaster

My fiance got home from work I hugged him then immediately asked for my jug of rum =( He of course refused me. Which caused me to get hostile and when he absolutely refused to enable me I lost it and said a bunch of crap I didnt mean. I stormed off.. with in minuets the guilt hit me and I apologized. Told him I appreciated what he was trying to do for me but told him I needed some space b/c I am still irrationally furious with him and didnt want to say any more stuff I didn't mean. I feel like all the progress I made by dumping that shot has just been negated. Not in the best of moods right now.

Dee74

Maybe it's good to start looking for and using other support SM?

It's rough on us in early recovery - it can be ever rougher on our loved one.

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artsoul

Your addiction is going to pitch some fits during the first days, but it will get better as you go forward. There are lots of ways of dealing with cravings ("urge surfing", distracting yourself, coming here and reading, and "playing the tape all the way through" where you look at the negative consequences of picking up another drink).

Also, eating something often helps. Alcohol has a lot of sugar in it and when our blood sugar drops, it can feel like a craving to drink. A big bowl of ice cream got me through some of those first sober nights.....

Hang in there - you can do this!!