bliss12

But I relapsed and haven't been coming to the forum because of that. I've also realized that I've picked up a nasty habit when I drink (its been happening for some years now but its gotten worse)-SMOKING. I hate smoking sober and was never into smoking. I always found it disgusting but did have a few cigs here and there while I was intoxicated. Well, now, I HAVE to have a cig and usually chain smoke when i'm drinking. It's almost like the drinking is not enough anymore and I need more stimulation. I usually get tired after drinking (not like before) and need something to keep me up.

TheEnd

So how would you like things to be different?

ReadyAtLast

welcome back.don't be embarrassed,We've all been where you are. you're back here now though which is the main thing. I got sober with the help of SR after many relapses

Hevyn

bliss - You never have to feel embarrassed here. Almost all of us have had the same struggles. When you relapse is the time you need to be here for suggestions and hope. It will relieve the anxiety you're feeling. You can get back on track.

Soberpotamus

Welcome back. Don't stay away out of embarrassment. Lots of us have been there. Glad you are back

Tamerua

Don't be embarrassed, we have all done it. The good thing is that you already know about SR and what you need to do! Welcome back.

bliss12

Thank you. I guess I feel embarrassed because I was so happy and raving about being sober and then bam, this happens. I feel like I have this constant inner conflict that is causing me to relapse.

bliss12

Well, ultimately I would like to stay sober but that's something I need to work on continuously.

Sudz No More

You'll get there, just keep trying one day at a time. The farther you go, the easier it gets. Just keep reminding yourself of that every time you get cravings.