Back After 2 Days Detox.....
...It's Time.
Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: NJ
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What im learning is you need to have a plan for dealing with stressful triggers. Detox is good but if you dont fix the mental aspect of what triggers the drink you end up back at square one. I just made a list of everything wrong in my life and what i can do to fix each one. Then im gonna get to work prioritizing one at a time. Its the only way. If i start drinking again i feel i will literally die. Im stronger than some liquid poison in a bottle and so are you. In reading your posts i see you are having trouble with work and your insurance. Focus on that and maybe counseling for your mental health issues. Theres always a way but you have to end the pity part and find it. You did it for year !! You cand do it forever.
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sparky, I've been to rehab several times. At this point I would only go to in-patient to one of the good ones like Hazledon, Betty Ford, Malibu Shores ect... I don't have money though & they make it very hard to get in without insurance/money. It may sound snobbish but I deserve a nice bed & good food. The State run places were a bit run down & I had trouble concentrating. My main plan on staying sober is to get a job and work as much as possible. I'm tired of being broke & always "mooching" off girlfriends, family, AA members & friends. My higher power does not want me to be broke.
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Originally Posted by onehigherpower 
Random Big Book quote:
Neither could we reduce our self-centeredness much by wishing or trying on our own power. We had to have God's help. Page 62
Neither could we reduce our self-centeredness much by wishing or trying on our own power. We had to have God's help. Page 62
...It's Time.
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Did you still feel this way after your year of sobriety. If you werent always this way then i believe theres still compassion buried somewhere in you. Alcohol makes us selfish. I to cared for nobody but my kids for a long time.
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Join Date: May 2010
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Originally Posted by Justfor1
never, yes I want to be sober again. The last few weeks of my postings here I do not believe I was serious in wanting to stop.
I hope you're able to find what you were missing and can find the happy and serene life real sobriety promises.
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[QUOTE=DayTrader;3995910]I'd agree. As the (truthful) old saying goes, relapse starts long before we actually pick up a drink.
Months before I picked up the first drink I was spending my days in the bars playing the newly legalized video poker & slot machines in my area. Of course, I am unemployed now & what little money I had went straight into the machine. I was drinking diet cokes but looking back it was not a good thing to do. I would then go to my nightly AA meetings & tell everyone I had a wonderful day. lol
Months before I picked up the first drink I was spending my days in the bars playing the newly legalized video poker & slot machines in my area. Of course, I am unemployed now & what little money I had went straight into the machine. I was drinking diet cokes but looking back it was not a good thing to do. I would then go to my nightly AA meetings & tell everyone I had a wonderful day. lol
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Originally Posted by Tamerua
Just saying howdy and glad you're back. You sound much better. 
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Originally Posted by Justfor1
Thank you. It wasn't my worst detox ever. I decided to be cautious though. I think my medication changes are starting to help me.
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Originally Posted by MadameX
Did you still feel this way after your year of sobriety. If you werent always this way then i believe theres still compassion buried somewhere in you. Alcohol makes us selfish. I to cared for nobody but my kids for a long time.
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Hmmm sound's like I was. The yellow I.v. Banana bag. The 3 days rest induced IV ativan. Its where I was. Its going to take you and a work of grace. I suggest going to white deer run. In Allentown PA. It was free. I am almost 2 yrs sober. It helped m e get quite. And let the change happen.That makes it sound like it was easy. You know I can't explain the delivery but it seems to be lasting.
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