Me at 500 days..No way :)
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Me at 500 days..No way :)
Ship that 500 days (in 45 min)! That walk from the hospital http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ight.htmlstill only seems like yesterday, but here I am 500 days stone cold sober. Thanks Soberrecovery.
Still think I am in early days but things are getting much much better, starting to love music again and sometimes even feel like dancing sober wtf lol
Was in bar this Friday just gone for 3 hours band and lots of drunks, but I loved the way I felt , very cliched to say "but what you see is what you get" with me now, its me ! Not a poisoned medicated thinking I am funny me, but me ! And I seriously think its cool to be sober now, I mean real cool. When I look around and everyone drinking, its pity I feel not envy, but I keep this to myself, really not trying to be smug because even though I have said all this I still get ridiculous cravings from time to time, but I know its just the addicted brain still trying its hardest to turn back into one of those sheep pouring poison down its throat talking Bs.
The only thing I have a hard time with is thoughts of regret and waste, I honestly believe I have thrown a large part of my life away with this drug, I just wish I could go back years and do it all sober. Nothing cooler than seeing a young person out enjoying themselves stone cold sober, the coolest thing ever IMHO. Think I would have had an amazing time if I had been sober when it came to the Days when I was out and about on the pull if you know what I mean. My MRs has put up with a lot of **** with me in my drinking years, not no more. I am a different person. Lastly no matter how difficult things ever get I am never GOING back to that sheep like life of following the crowd drinking and drugging, so dull so yesterday.
To anyone starting out , providing anyone reads this...GRIND the early days/feelings out, stare at a wall for days if you have to , anything is better than being a slave to alcoHELL ! The thing I Love most is the freedom to do what I want when I want, liberation from the obsession/hiding/planning your next drink/am I over the limit in the car worry/ and being a sheep.
Thank you all 1000 days here I come.
Sober really is the coolest thing ever, detach your thoughts see the drug for what it is.
Be lucky.
Still think I am in early days but things are getting much much better, starting to love music again and sometimes even feel like dancing sober wtf lol
Was in bar this Friday just gone for 3 hours band and lots of drunks, but I loved the way I felt , very cliched to say "but what you see is what you get" with me now, its me ! Not a poisoned medicated thinking I am funny me, but me ! And I seriously think its cool to be sober now, I mean real cool. When I look around and everyone drinking, its pity I feel not envy, but I keep this to myself, really not trying to be smug because even though I have said all this I still get ridiculous cravings from time to time, but I know its just the addicted brain still trying its hardest to turn back into one of those sheep pouring poison down its throat talking Bs.
The only thing I have a hard time with is thoughts of regret and waste, I honestly believe I have thrown a large part of my life away with this drug, I just wish I could go back years and do it all sober. Nothing cooler than seeing a young person out enjoying themselves stone cold sober, the coolest thing ever IMHO. Think I would have had an amazing time if I had been sober when it came to the Days when I was out and about on the pull if you know what I mean. My MRs has put up with a lot of **** with me in my drinking years, not no more. I am a different person. Lastly no matter how difficult things ever get I am never GOING back to that sheep like life of following the crowd drinking and drugging, so dull so yesterday.
To anyone starting out , providing anyone reads this...GRIND the early days/feelings out, stare at a wall for days if you have to , anything is better than being a slave to alcoHELL ! The thing I Love most is the freedom to do what I want when I want, liberation from the obsession/hiding/planning your next drink/am I over the limit in the car worry/ and being a sheep.
Thank you all 1000 days here I come.
Sober really is the coolest thing ever, detach your thoughts see the drug for what it is.
Be lucky.
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Hello Darkdays. Reading your post made me realize I have 504 days completely sober! Just like you, I'm really beginning to accept and enjoy my sobriety. Yes, I have cravings from time to time, especially when involved in activities where others are drinking. But it's a controllable craving, perhaps more of a situation memory than cravings. I often think about my wasted time and how I could re-live that period as god intended me to. Its over and I'm trying to focus on making the best of what time I have left.
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Awesome! I love your post. That's how I feel about being a nondrinker. I don't just accept it, I embrace it. It's way cooler!! Thank you!
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