citers0506

Ok so as a young kid I was pronounced with anxiety attacks. They have me klonopin and it worked the. They gave me clonodine to sleep right after that.this was all about 12 years ago and I've been taking them ever since. NOW I started Drinking heavily to kill the pain from getting four of my teeth broken and knocked out in a car wreck. Drank all day every day until I started realizing the panic attacks were coming back and now the liquor won't even stop them sometimes now. I mean I can't afford any rehab center and I drink about dead on between 1/5 and 1/4 of a half gallon for every day over a month now. I could deal with the rest of it but panic attacks inducing terrifying hallucinations I can't man up and not be horrified. Anyone have ANY advice? /:

I'm 22 and it's been a constant intake for almost a month now. Day, night whenever the tooth started up again. I just want to stop I can't handle that feeling from anxiety where your whole torso and back of your head feels like they're on fire. My biggest fear is that the whiskey is going to produce the same withdrawal affects even when I do drink it and then I have no way to stop the horrible hallucinations and pounding anxiety. I just have to hold out to get to a dr here soon. But until then WILL consumption if it make it stop until I can get treatment in a week? The anxiety and fear at least? Thank you so much for any help guys.

-Nick

john44

When I quit, I realized that I have much less anxiety now. I was on Xanax for about 4 yeas also. Stop drinking now. Alcohol is not the answer to either pain or anxiety. Please see a doctor and tell him everything.

citers0506

Also, I've only been able to eat a tiny bit because it soaks up the alcohol and starts the vertigo/anxiety. I have only eaten maybe four times in the past three weeks. Cant sleep more than an hour or two before I wake up from convulsions shaking me awake. I know I'm probably going to told I need to spend a detox perilous In the hospital (and I'm positive that I do need to be) , but I'm absolutely terrified that all these scary symptoms like the hallucinations and anxiety but in THAT scenario I would be restrained. Like I said what the hell did I do to myself . I need real answers please guys just not opinions feel free to share your story though I just have tried this kind of social help already and listened to them; wound up being picked up by my fellow officers. That was HUMILIATING for them to see me like that. I didn't have ANY rational thought or was in touch with reality at all. Trust me I WANT to quit more than anything and if I do I'm never touching this poison again. I appreciate everyone of your responses and stories

Dee74

Hi

It sounds to me like you need some professional advice and assistance Nick.

I know how scary that might seem, but it's a lot less scary that some of the alternatives.

Find a Dr, be honest and open - see what they suggest

There are a lot of free or low cost clinics around - if there's one in your local area you might get some medical advice there?

Free/Low-Cost/Sliding-Scale Clinics
2-1-1 Call Center Search

D

citers0506

I have seen a doc and he just said he couldn't do anything for me I need a specialist at this point John. Trust me I know now it's not worth a s*** for anything but putting you in an altered state of reality.

And Dee thank you so much <3 I will deff check those out but I live in TX. Still gonna look as those links though even if I have to go to china I'm willing to so I can drop this disgusting addiction.

Thank you both for trying to help it means more to me as a stranger to you guys but it helps more than you Guys know .
Go to bed tonight and fell good knowing you both helped give a desperate person hope

visch1

Hi. I identify in part with your pain and despair. It was suggested for me to try a detox and some time at a rehab which helped in many ways but I wasn't ready and relapsed because I wanted to drink more than I wanted to be sober. Most of the medical profession doesn't have a clue on how to handle alcoholics, so many unbelievable stories! AA and pages like this are places where people understand and help, often even if we don't want it.
BE WELL

citers0506

If I can just get off it I will NEVER touch alcohol again after all the things it's done to me. I have NOTHING but the will to quit! Thank you so much and you stay well and safe too my friend

citers0506

I have only eaten about a half pack of saltines in the last three weeks. It soaks up the alcohol and make these terrifying withdrawals come back until it makes me throw it up from anxiety is another thing I forgot to mention. I'm starving but I'm sure you all know the things we would do to avoid that "your going to die" panic attacks /:

visch1

As a member of AA and I see here on this board there are numerous "tools" to not drink and continue down that path. #1 is not to pick up the first drink. Be honest with ourselves and aim not to drink today, not next week or year, we only have today. Keep coming encouraged me greatly along with being involved. BE WELL

wolfpackfan45

Nick, my 22 year old son is a recovering alcoholic and suffers from anxiety and panic attacks. He was on an antidepressant and tried t taper off on his own. Started self medicating on his own with alcohol when the panic attacks and anxiety came back. Unfortunately as you know alcohol is a depressant and exacerbates anxiety. He had a meltdown at college and had a horrible panic attack after a binge. He hadn't been eating (lost 40 pounds) and hadn't slept in days due to insomnia. Thought he was dying. He called an ambulance and they took him to the ER. They kept him for a day, game him IV meds and vitamins and we came and got him. He didn't go the rehab route. Took him to our Dr and he started him on a new antidepressant that also treats anxiety. He also gave him some meds to take during the initial detox time. He started in AA and some cognitive behavior therapy. After 3 months he was back in college. Other than a few minor instances, the anxiety is gone as are the panic attacks. Go to the ER and tell a Dr. there what is going on. Ask for a psych evaluation too. The psych can help you with the anxiety and panic attacks and the ER doc can help you with the withdrawal. Most hospitals (at least in my area of the US) can't turn you away. You can't go on without eating and drinking this amount of alcohol.

citers0506

I really appreciate all the responses guys. I'm being admitted to the hospital tomorrow after I almost slipped into DT today. Seizure happened today and I fell right on a nailed board. That's just too risky for me had I been another foot to the right I wouldn't have busted my head on the concrete but impaled my head on the nails like I did my back. But I'm never touching this poison again. I have nothing but the will to quit.

Dee74

I'm really glad you're going to have be supervised.
Is someone with you now?

D

citers0506

Well my cats. I live alone. Lol but I didn't survive 4 fatal car crashes and a bullet in Iraq to give up over this. I will fight until the end if I have too .

citers0506

Good lord. I Just read About alcohol and my medications. I take Paxil clonodine and clonazapam and have been drinking a half gallon ever two days lol how am I not dead?! I'm an idiot! -_-

coraltint

Stay strong, citers. You gotta stop, man....even a 20-yr old body won't hold up for long on saltines & booze. There's lots of help here, and many of us have been strung out & freaking just like you. Keep coming back!!

instant

The idea of supervised detox is to prevent DT,s hallucinations, convulsions etc they replace the alcohol with pills that block the problem then slowly withdraw them. I wish you luck.

citers0506

My only two fears are hallucinations and panic/anxiety attacks. Can they stop those? That's the only thing that stopped me from quitting earlier. If they can stop those two I don't mind the other withdrawal symptoms at all.

jkb

I was on benzos for three years and drank heavily. Hangovers caused me extreme anxiety. Actually when I was actively drinking everything caused me anxiety. They will help you with the panic attacks and hallucinations. They will make sure you are safe and as comfortable as possible I am sure. I am glad you are getting medical treatment. Life is better on the other side.

Lionne

Hi citers,
I wish you luck and I hope you will get a supervised detox at the hospital, especially if mixed with so many other meds. I´m not a psychologist, but reading through your quotes:

...this sounds pretty horrific in itself and it sounds like a lot of these things can cause panic attacks or even ptsd without the alcohol being in the mix. So maybe the alcohol abuse is also there because of other pain than just knocked out teeth.

The thing ist, if this is the case, alcohol isn´t a good self-medication, it will only make anxiety worsen and keep you from dealing with this stuff so you can live happier.
(I was a classical "drinking to numb trauma"-alcoholic and at the end anxiety was alwayas present. Drinking didn't even work anymore)
So really, it is a very good thing that you want to stop drinking and to detox safely.
Be safe, and best wishes, and hope to see you back,
Lionne

citers0506

Thank you all SO much guys! I'm going in after they evaluate me here in a sec. I'll be back I got this.