please make me do it. i need to
 

Ok so living with my boyfriend makes it nearly impossible to go an aa meeting but due to me having to go to a family christening iv got to stay in another town wth my mum.

I want to got aa meetimg but am scared. I dont want my boyfriend knowing.

What scares you so much about your boyfriend knowing? If you have a problem with alcohol and need help and your boyfriend loves you then it seems like he would be happy to see you try to do something about it.

Its hard to accept the dosease of alcoholism. Its hard to ask for help. I couldn't imagine being with someone who didn't fully support my need to stay sober, no matter what. This is a deadly disease.

Without my wife supporting me. No way could I attempt this.
I agree. I wouldn't be surprised if your boyfriend has an inkling that you may have an issue with alcohol anyway. Perhaps he'd be relieved and supportive of your decision to stop.
Best.

I hope you do go boris - you've struggled for a while now - I think there are more important things at stake here than your boyfriend knowing.

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