I'm scared
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I'm scared
I'm meeting my sponsor today to finish going over step one and to talk. I feel safe and comfortable around her but I'm still scared. I'm sharing with her today something only my therapist knows that continues to bug me. My therapist never judges me for it but I'm scared my sponsor will. I want to share but I'm also terrified. I feel like i can share with my sponsor a lot of things. My old sponsor I never felt safe around her. But I'm still scared. I finished step 2 too. Will go over it next week as well.
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Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: South East England
Posts: 8,009
I've shared lots of things with my sponsor that I've never shared with anyone else.
It is scary I know.
But to make this thing work I figured I needed to be really honest, and I've not regretted it.
Be strong x
It is scary I know.
But to make this thing work I figured I needed to be really honest, and I've not regretted it.
Be strong x
Member
Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,238
In recovery we learn to eventually become
honest in all our affairs. When we get to that
point, however long it takes, the rewards of
it is absolutely freeing. It will be that freedom
we hear so often in our program and it will
affect each person on a different level and
feeling.
Honesty doesnt mean we have to air out
all those bad things we've done in our lives
before, during and after our addictions to
the world. We find someone we feel comfortable
with to share with so we don't have to carry
all those heavy crosses on our shoulders by
ourselves.
We use those tools, suggestions, steps, provided
to us in recovery to guide us along in helping us
live a healthier, honest life in sobriety. We use
our doctors for medical purposes, remaining
honest about our addictions, we use our church,
ministers, spiritual advisors for religious guidance,
our sponsors in recovery for sobriety and so on.
I don't share everything with just one person and
yet use all those available for my own purpose in
staying sober.
I also use my Higher Power or God of my
understanding to pray and lean on because
He above everyone else knows everything
about me. There'e no escaping the truth when
it comes to Him.
honest in all our affairs. When we get to that
point, however long it takes, the rewards of
it is absolutely freeing. It will be that freedom
we hear so often in our program and it will
affect each person on a different level and
feeling.
Honesty doesnt mean we have to air out
all those bad things we've done in our lives
before, during and after our addictions to
the world. We find someone we feel comfortable
with to share with so we don't have to carry
all those heavy crosses on our shoulders by
ourselves.
We use those tools, suggestions, steps, provided
to us in recovery to guide us along in helping us
live a healthier, honest life in sobriety. We use
our doctors for medical purposes, remaining
honest about our addictions, we use our church,
ministers, spiritual advisors for religious guidance,
our sponsors in recovery for sobriety and so on.
I don't share everything with just one person and
yet use all those available for my own purpose in
staying sober.
I also use my Higher Power or God of my
understanding to pray and lean on because
He above everyone else knows everything
about me. There'e no escaping the truth when
it comes to Him.
Member
Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: South East England
Posts: 8,009
That will help. When I spoke to my sponsor the worst part was leading up to it. I spent countless wasted hours imagining scenarios, what she would say, what she would think, how I would react.
None of it was further from the truth of what happened. She listened. She told me things about herself. She was kind and sort of matter of fact and I had an enormous sense of relief and calm afterwards.
Go and talk. There isn't anything that hasn't been said or done by someone else before you.
It will be ok x
None of it was further from the truth of what happened. She listened. She told me things about herself. She was kind and sort of matter of fact and I had an enormous sense of relief and calm afterwards.
Go and talk. There isn't anything that hasn't been said or done by someone else before you.
It will be ok x
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Toronto, Ontario
Posts: 2,408
Good for you, A.
Remember that many of us have heard almost everything under the sun. We've all heard enough drunkalogues, stories, 5th steps, our own inventories, etc. to realize that everything is a variation on a theme, really. But, that doesn't make it any less nerve wracking when we are the one making that leap of faith in trust. Many of us don't do "trust" well.
But as we gain strength in gaining and giving trust, we find our guards up less and less. Doesn't mean we blab everything to everyone...but we have the quiet confidence that we're not as unique as we make ourselves out to be, and that trusting in others allows us to have other people's trust.
Good luck!
Remember that many of us have heard almost everything under the sun. We've all heard enough drunkalogues, stories, 5th steps, our own inventories, etc. to realize that everything is a variation on a theme, really. But, that doesn't make it any less nerve wracking when we are the one making that leap of faith in trust. Many of us don't do "trust" well.
But as we gain strength in gaining and giving trust, we find our guards up less and less. Doesn't mean we blab everything to everyone...but we have the quiet confidence that we're not as unique as we make ourselves out to be, and that trusting in others allows us to have other people's trust.
Good luck!
Member
Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,238
Down the road there will be someone just
like you scared to death and not knowing
who to turn to for help or what to do, and
you will find it in ur heart and strong in ur
sobriety to help that person by simply sharing
your own experiences, strengths and hopes
with them on situations just like this one.
In doing so, you will remain humble in ur
actions and continue happily on ur recovery
journey enjoying the rewards promised us
in sobriety.
like you scared to death and not knowing
who to turn to for help or what to do, and
you will find it in ur heart and strong in ur
sobriety to help that person by simply sharing
your own experiences, strengths and hopes
with them on situations just like this one.
In doing so, you will remain humble in ur
actions and continue happily on ur recovery
journey enjoying the rewards promised us
in sobriety.
Member
Join Date: Feb 2013
Posts: 5
First of all, congrats 'cause you overcomed your fear and did it, and apparently the result is good!!!!!!! 
I am also scared, I am attending some meetings, though they are not AA, but I don't really like them... And I don't dare to tell them that I keep on drinking....
Just too bad.....
I am also scared, I am attending some meetings, though they are not AA, but I don't really like them... And I don't dare to tell them that I keep on drinking....
Just too bad.....
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