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Join Date: Feb 2013
Location: miami fl
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Newbie here
Ugh. Lately it's been bad. Same cycle every night.
Go out for a drink and then 4 or 5 glasses of wine later. I'm tipsy and drunk
Beautiful on the outside and falling apart inside. Hating myself. Shame. Regret. Same cycle. Need god to help me.
Downward spiral I go. Coming here for hope, I know I'm not crazy. Mind just keeps telling me I am.
- sleepless in miami.
Go out for a drink and then 4 or 5 glasses of wine later. I'm tipsy and drunk
Beautiful on the outside and falling apart inside. Hating myself. Shame. Regret. Same cycle. Need god to help me.
Downward spiral I go. Coming here for hope, I know I'm not crazy. Mind just keeps telling me I am.
- sleepless in miami.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,431
welcome pink79coach 
coming here really helped me turn my life around - I hope we can help you do the same
I think supports very important - are you looking aty real life support too like AA or some other group?
Making changes is pretty important, even if it's just simple ones like coming here instead of drinking.
I drank for 20 years - if I can do this recovery deal, you can too
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coming here really helped me turn my life around - I hope we can help you do the same
I think supports very important - are you looking aty real life support too like AA or some other group?
Making changes is pretty important, even if it's just simple ones like coming here instead of drinking.
I drank for 20 years - if I can do this recovery deal, you can too
D
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Join Date: Feb 2011
Location: ON
Posts: 766
oh, i reamemeber that spiral, i was stuck in it for many years.
and i wanted out of it so badly. and trust me i tried hard.
please do not feel you are alone in this.
and like DEE says, If I can do it, you can too.
I was a rough case. I thought death would be easier.
But now on the recovery side I can look back and be thankful for all the crap i went thru.
it taught me so much
we are here for you
and i wanted out of it so badly. and trust me i tried hard.
please do not feel you are alone in this.
and like DEE says, If I can do it, you can too.
I was a rough case. I thought death would be easier.
But now on the recovery side I can look back and be thankful for all the crap i went thru.
it taught me so much
we are here for you
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Toronto, Ontario
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Welcome pink79coach...and succinctly well said about how it feels to be in the cycle of shame, guilt and remorse. We've all gone through that - I lived my life in that spin-dry, and it got worse and worse, until I got to the point where fear of drinking outweighed fear of not drinking. The cycle needed to stop.
AA for me is how it stopped, and I have learned to not only deal with past guilt and shame, but to put it to bed, and come from a place of love, gratitude and giving back. There are other paths too.
Our minds are our biggest enemies.
Stick around.
AA for me is how it stopped, and I have learned to not only deal with past guilt and shame, but to put it to bed, and come from a place of love, gratitude and giving back. There are other paths too.
Our minds are our biggest enemies.
Stick around.
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: Maricopa, AZ
Posts: 99
No, you are not crazy.
You're doing good in that you've identified the problem. Now you need to figure out how to fix it which, admittedly, is the hard part. Some go to detox, some go to AA, some go to God, but everyone goes to someone for help because we need someone to lean on and confide with. I was amazed at how just talking to another alcoholic helped me.
You're not a bad person; you're a sick person and you can be healed. It will require effort and when you come out on the other side you'll be stronger for it. I can not tell you in how different it is on this side of the tunnel. You'll have to experience that for yourself. I can only encourage you to make the trip. I promise, it's worth it.
You're doing good in that you've identified the problem. Now you need to figure out how to fix it which, admittedly, is the hard part. Some go to detox, some go to AA, some go to God, but everyone goes to someone for help because we need someone to lean on and confide with. I was amazed at how just talking to another alcoholic helped me.
You're not a bad person; you're a sick person and you can be healed. It will require effort and when you come out on the other side you'll be stronger for it. I can not tell you in how different it is on this side of the tunnel. You'll have to experience that for yourself. I can only encourage you to make the trip. I promise, it's worth it.
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