Paulos

I don't know why but I'm putting this up here, at my age of 27, I may be sober from alcohol for 6 months but that doesn't ... that doesn't change enough of what I used to be, I was smarter with certain things now dumber- and now I'm smarter and dumber with certain things after the past 7 years when I first begun to suffer anxiety attacks...

I live in a rural freakin area and if you don't drive you got a big problem, and since I cannot drive and there's no real public transit I have an issue and that's only one of them. Being mentally disabled hinders me to drive, and let me say I HAVE attempted it- I am a liability on the road because I panic too easily.


27 years old, I got nothing man. nothing. :sighs and just lays head on desk:

And then they ask me about can't I take a Xanax WELL it's a double blade there
Xanax puts people under the "influence" so therefore let's just say I get stopped by a cop- it's practically as if I was driving drunk- except I am NOT drunk that's how they'll see it- as they will be enforcing people about driving under drugs' influence in the next 20++ years

On another approach...
The other problem is, in my youth
I had no one really to guide me in a father figure way
had to shave myself *got some lovely lovely scars*
and I never possessed the huge interest in ... automobiles

Example- You show me a Buick and a BMW and I'll wonder for 30 minutes what the HELL is each. The only reason I know about my mother's car is due to the Japanese name "Honda" Street fighter and Samurai Warriors- ain't my life wonderful
and being disabled I don't go out to work so I have no job, living on the dole as they call it- you think I feel proud about it? I don't, but at this time there are no other options

I'm not qualified, I freak out too much due to my autism and my learning disorder. Wow.


That's only part of my story, fun eh?

Justfor1

Try to hang in there. I can relate to not driving. I was unable to drive for 10+ years because I was a danger on the road due to a number of dui's. I got really involved in biking. I was able to commute 12 miles round trip to a part time job I use to have.

bigsombrero

Hang in there, you'll be okay. Hey that bike idea above ain't bad. I used to live in a rural village town with only dirt roads for a while with no transport. Then I got a bike and it opened up the world to me. Plus it's great exercise which I hear is good for the brain and mental health. Good luck with everything.

graceling

Don't put yourself down hun, the things you are dealing with are not fun by any means but like the others said, hang in there. Try to have a positive outlook, things will get better. Focus on the good things in your life. Easier said than done, I know. But just remember, there are people out there that care about you, surround yourself with them <3

Paulos

I hope you're right graceling because I feel VERY alone tonight from my family and ... the very few friends I have... :'(

janiebluebird

If your anxiety is that bad and you have a prescription for xanax you won't get in trouble. Obviously don't take enough to inebriate yourself, but enough so that you aren't on the brink of an anxiety attack.

Paulos

It's too late for that, I can't drive right anyway.

Justfor1

I always thought that any "controlled substance" found in your system while driving could be a dui? Not sure how that works though because folks take prescription pain killers yet are not high as a kite endangering people.

janiebluebird

No, its not a DUI if its taken as prescribed. As long as a doctor says its okay you're good to go - this goes for anti anxieties to amphetamines (adderall) and everything in between.

Gforce23

Hi there,

I used to have panic and a lot of anxiety. You know what-- get into cycling. Cars are terrible for the planet anyway. On a bike, you'll go places, get outside in fresh air, get in shape, and that, will help your outlook on life, and maybe even your anxiety. Regular exercise helps me with my ADHD and anxiety/OCD thoughts. I am a MAJOR mountain biker, and I just couldn't live with out my bike! Go watch "breaking away" it was about a young kid in a small town that got into road racing and no one in his home town understood, yada yada--- you'll be the super cool guy who's really into cycling, and people will be curious about it. You'll be different, which IMO, is a good thing.

Paulos

Everytime I exercise I usually get headaches... I'm really weak in the head it seems, I get chronic cluster headaches *Just another one of my misfortunes, the big one*

Gforce23

Cr*p. I can certainly see while your feeling low and maybe a bit defeated. Have you tried any meds for the cluster migraines? I don't know where you are--but it sounds like you need a specialist... it sounds like you have a lot of things going on that might be inter-related somehow. Don't give up! You could always hitch-hike, if your in a rural area, most people know each other. I've done it a lot over the years depending on the area...

Good luck.

TrixMixer

Paulos,

You are not alone being weak in the head--we drunks are all weak in the head!

YOU ARE NOT ALONE YOU BELONG TO A VERY SPECIAL CLUB OF PEOPLE WHO CARE AND UNDERSTAND YOU! We are your friends!

I have several friends who had panic attacks while driving (with so many wacky drivers out there is it any wonder we panic). They both have overcome that fear and anxiety through therapy and anti-depressants. Now that is them, and only a doctor can determine what might work for you. Autism is another thing entirely, but I am sure whomever you work with they may help you address your other issues. Have you worked with anyone in therapy?

I take it from your Posting ID you are into internet gaming? That is a total world in and of itself--I am sure you may have connected with people in that way, yes?

It is not hopeless, you may need a professional to work with face to face in order to resolve some of your issues.

Life has a funny way of working out, Paulos,. Look at the people on this forum. Some have not changed their lives for the better until they were in their 40"s and older. Many of us felt we were hopeless also, but that is not what life had planned for us. We made it out of the loneliness and isolation that was alcoholism, and have lives we never thought we would. It takes work, but Life is full of surprises---hopefully you will realize this and see your way out of the isolation you feel now.

We are always here for you---so you do have friends !

Sincerely,
TrixMixer

Justfor1

Thanks for the info. As I, on occassion, take something for panic attacks. I have a long history of "DUI issues" so this concerns me.