2 years !
From my experience, it would be to GET HONEST WITH YOURSELF ABOUT YOUR PROBLEM(s) (note that capitalization of letters does not mean that I am yelling). ACCEPT who you are... GET HELP.
For far too long I sat on the "...am I an alcoholic, or just a heavy binge drinker ?" fence.. That's because I could not honestly look at myself, my life, what alcohol has done to me, and what it continues to do....
Also, rarely did I stop after 1 or 2 drinks after work, or at lunch - but when I did, it was a (false) reason to celebrate as I would see that delusional light at the end of the tunnel, symbolizing that I too perhaps can be a NORMAL drinker. Thing is, it was the devil holding that light.....
Sobriety has to come first, ALWAYS.
Thank you, TorontoGuy. I don't think I'm there yet - still delude myself about just how much damage my drinking caused me and others.
What started to scare this former college football player (I don't get easily scared ) - is when the many "not yet's" started to actually happen.... For example.. "I never drank too much and drove home" --- DONE. "I would never drink during the day, alone while "working" from my home office" --- DONE "At least I am not hiding booze around the house yet" --- DONE
So as you can see, alcoholism is 100% progressive.. Things that I was 100% certain this educated drunk would NEVER, absolutely NEVER do -- I DID !! It really shook me up.
Good luck in your journey and please feel free to PM it at anytime - that goes for all of you !!
Thanks, TorontoGuy. I can also see how the depravity of my drinking increased over the years. Almost 40 days into sobriety and I have times when I REALLY really miss drinking. Intellectually, it's an easy argument to win (sobriety at all costs) but the cravings, although much less regular, are intense! Admire your tenacity. It's great to talk with people who've won the fight.
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TorontoGuy,
I went back through all your old posts......wow......it sounds just like me.....if you can quit....then so can I......thanks for the motivation and congratulations on 2 years.....!!!
I went back through all your old posts......wow......it sounds just like me.....if you can quit....then so can I......thanks for the motivation and congratulations on 2 years.....!!!
YES you can ! I re-read my posts to remind me how crazy things were.... Sober life is soooo much better !
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