Alcoholism and the Small World it created
Alcoholism and the Small World it created
I went to a new AA group today on a suggestion from an old friend, it's his home group. It was a big audience, a very young and healthy looking crowd. Everything felt unfamiliar and loud.
I was reminded how far I've distanced myself from my own city since I returned here from treatment and healing time elsewhere. It dawned on me that I haven't checked the local news or even looked at the weather forecast here for a week..instead I have been following world politics and events far away. I live in the city but I have only been outside my little urban neighborhood a handful of times. I live alone. I haven't even taken the 3 train stops to downtown to see the big city lights.
It was nice to get reconnected with people today at AA, but also shocking to see how small I've made my own little world. To my normal friends, I'm the traveler, the one living abroad, the person with a worldly outlook. However, I spend most days at coffee shops within a 6-block radius and then come home where I eat dinner alone, night after night. I am far from worldly, in fact just the opposite.
Looks like there's a lot of work ahead, but I for one am just happy that I can finally step back and see it. It's amazing how as my addiction grew, it adversely shrunk my social life to nil. Seven months sober, but still a lot of challenges in front of me. Thanks for listening!
I was reminded how far I've distanced myself from my own city since I returned here from treatment and healing time elsewhere. It dawned on me that I haven't checked the local news or even looked at the weather forecast here for a week..instead I have been following world politics and events far away. I live in the city but I have only been outside my little urban neighborhood a handful of times. I live alone. I haven't even taken the 3 train stops to downtown to see the big city lights.
It was nice to get reconnected with people today at AA, but also shocking to see how small I've made my own little world. To my normal friends, I'm the traveler, the one living abroad, the person with a worldly outlook. However, I spend most days at coffee shops within a 6-block radius and then come home where I eat dinner alone, night after night. I am far from worldly, in fact just the opposite.
Looks like there's a lot of work ahead, but I for one am just happy that I can finally step back and see it. It's amazing how as my addiction grew, it adversely shrunk my social life to nil. Seven months sober, but still a lot of challenges in front of me. Thanks for listening!
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