What to do. Hello again all. Last year, Feb 23rd was my last trip to the hospital. after five days, I was released. I didn't have a drink for 9 months and 3 days after that. Then on a SUnday, I started again. Out of the blue and for no reason. Since then, it has been 2+ months of drinking every day. I can't let this continue. I am already back to feeling like crap if I don't have a drink by early afternoon. I keep telling myself 24 hours, time takes time, one day at a time, but I am lost. My next visit won't be to the hospital, it will be to the morgue. I'm stuck and can't get out of this rut. Help. |
Maybe one more visit to the hospital for a safe detox is in order. If you are truly desperate, I suggest AA. It has been known to work when nothing else does. |
Are you open to face to face support? see your Dr? counseling? a recovery group be it AA or something else? It seems like it might be time to call in some reinforcements? D |
What initially got you to stop was it the hospital scare? I think Lexie's advice is key. Perhaps get a safely detoxed and admit yourself into a rehab program and get to the root of why you would just start again for no reason out of the blue. Something had to trigger your desire to drink. |
Dee, I have just been reading over my past posts and you have always been there. Thank you. There are some things I can't do. One is make it anywhere. I don't have any transportation. The closest meeting is more than 30 miles away. I can't go to the doctor. I don't have a personal Doc and the hospital won't let me back in. My last bill for the 5 days was for 186 THOUSAND DOLLARS. So, no help there..... I know I'm making what seem to be excuses, but I have put myself in the position I'm in. I don't know why I turned the switch back on. I don't know what changed. You guys are the closest thing I get to attending a real meeting anymore. I'm reading the Big Book every day. I know I need to repair before I return to who I was. Thankfully, I am not back to the same place I was, but if I don't do something soon, I am in for it. Is there anyone in South Florida here who can reach me? But that is just me being selfish again. 17 minutes. 1 more beer. Then the 24 hours starts. I can make it for one day, right? |
I don't know if I have any good advice, but wanted to wish you the best. I find your candidness refreshing. There is a lot of support here, as you know. There have also been many that have found success utilizing SR and other similar resources. |
Thank you Ghostly. I need to be back here. I guess that is why I showed up again this evening. It is proving to be a wise choice so far. I appreciate you all so much more than I could ever express. |
If nothing else, SR is a great place to be. I credit the community here with helping me find my way, and helping me stay true. Post and read regularly - you can do this :) D |
You might also check out the Salvation Army. I've heard that they have a good rehab program. |
Do all that you can, if you want to live. We're all in the same position as you, maybe not exactly alike, but we all know we need/needed to change if we wanted to have a good/healthy life. It's not too late...try to find help. Things will get better...don't give up. |
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