So here I go... Confession time... :(
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So here I go... Confession time... :(
I had almost five years, and have relapsed. You know, it does get you. Once a month... "oh, okay, I can do this", then turned into twice a month, four times a months, a couple days a week...
Addiction sucks, I hate being an alcoholic. I hate that I picked up. I am so sad.
I am in the process of seeking help professionally and as well looking for meetings in my area as I have moved since I had been sober.
Anyway, I have lots of old friends here, one being Pancake, who is also my Facebook friend, I confessed to her last night and as well one of my close gf's who is also in recovery.
I have a wonderful man that I am engaged to who is totally supporting me, and I am so grateful for him. The first HEALTHY relationship I've ever had, and btw, he does not drink, drug, smoke... never has, so he's good for me. I LOVE him!!!
One step at a time. So anyway... I'm back!!!!!
Addiction sucks, I hate being an alcoholic. I hate that I picked up. I am so sad.
I am in the process of seeking help professionally and as well looking for meetings in my area as I have moved since I had been sober.
Anyway, I have lots of old friends here, one being Pancake, who is also my Facebook friend, I confessed to her last night and as well one of my close gf's who is also in recovery.
I have a wonderful man that I am engaged to who is totally supporting me, and I am so grateful for him. The first HEALTHY relationship I've ever had, and btw, he does not drink, drug, smoke... never has, so he's good for me. I LOVE him!!!
One step at a time. So anyway... I'm back!!!!!
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vegibean... you didnt lose your sober time, and are back on the good path. Slips happen, we just learn from them, lick our wounds, and keep doing the next right thing. Congratulations on making sobriety a priority... we can do this..
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Originally Posted by vegibean 
I had almost five years, and have relapsed. You know, it does get you. Once a month... "oh, okay, I can do this", then turned into twice a month, four times a months, a couple days a week...
Addiction sucks, I hate being an alcoholic. I hate that I picked up. I am so sad.
I am in the process of seeking help professionally and as well looking for meetings in my area as I have moved since I had been sober.
Anyway, I have lots of old friends here, one being Pancake, who is also my Facebook friend, I confessed to her last night and as well one of my close gf's who is also in recovery.
I have a wonderful man that I am engaged to who is totally supporting me, and I am so grateful for him. The first HEALTHY relationship I've ever had, and btw, he does not drink, drug, smoke... never has, so he's good for me. I LOVE him!!!
One step at a time. So anyway... I'm back!!!!!
Addiction sucks, I hate being an alcoholic. I hate that I picked up. I am so sad.
I am in the process of seeking help professionally and as well looking for meetings in my area as I have moved since I had been sober.
Anyway, I have lots of old friends here, one being Pancake, who is also my Facebook friend, I confessed to her last night and as well one of my close gf's who is also in recovery.
I have a wonderful man that I am engaged to who is totally supporting me, and I am so grateful for him. The first HEALTHY relationship I've ever had, and btw, he does not drink, drug, smoke... never has, so he's good for me. I LOVE him!!!
One step at a time. So anyway... I'm back!!!!!
I am a month sober now and I can tell you its far easier this time than the first time you had to get sober. Because you know whats its like and jsut do it like its a job.
Being sober is a job. Either sign up with the application or be a bum and don't work, but in this case keep drinking.
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Hey, vegibean! Welcome back. We're still here, LOL!
Nope, you didn't lose your sober time. You still have all that knowledge and now an even better grasp on just how patient alcoholism is. I think it's the patience that is the most insidious thing about it.
Glad to know you have a great guy who is supportive. That makes it a bit easier, I'm sure. Keep putting one sober foot in front of the other and it will all work out.
Nope, you didn't lose your sober time. You still have all that knowledge and now an even better grasp on just how patient alcoholism is. I think it's the patience that is the most insidious thing about it.
Glad to know you have a great guy who is supportive. That makes it a bit easier, I'm sure. Keep putting one sober foot in front of the other and it will all work out.
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Be gentle with yourself. Relapsing after many years sober is hard. I relapsed too after years of sobriety. It does get better. I found that after a few months of sobriety, I was able to reconnect to the years of sobriety. Those 5 years of sobriety are still there.
Having a partner who does not drink helps so much.
Having a partner who does not drink helps so much.
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4 years is a long time, unforgettably this disease is cunning baffling and powerful! I can identify with the relapses, i dont know about you, but for me when I drank again it was due to the fact I failed to enlarge my spiritual life and was not helping others!
Thank God you made it back without a major debacle, far to many go out and never come back due to ego and pride. Only to suffer an alcoholic death.
Right now I bet your more willing then ever to do the work, which is a blessing. Please get in touch with someone who can help you though the work aka the Steps. It is not unheard of people going out with 5 10 even 30 years I have heard one case.
Remember, WE get sober, I drink. WE, first word first step!
Inbox me for my number, I have no problem helping you out if you ever need someone to talk to!
It would be my honor!
Thank God you made it back without a major debacle, far to many go out and never come back due to ego and pride. Only to suffer an alcoholic death.
Right now I bet your more willing then ever to do the work, which is a blessing. Please get in touch with someone who can help you though the work aka the Steps. It is not unheard of people going out with 5 10 even 30 years I have heard one case.
Remember, WE get sober, I drink. WE, first word first step!
Inbox me for my number, I have no problem helping you out if you ever need someone to talk to!
It would be my honor!
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Vegi - please know that I think you are awesome, relapse or no relapse.
It takes a lot in a person to get five years.
It takes even more in a person to say that they relapsed after five years.
I can, and I am sure others can still learn a whole lot from you.
You are an articulate, clever, compassionate lady who is loved by others.
I think as soon as you pick yourself and up dust yourself down, your going to do great!
xxxx
It takes a lot in a person to get five years.
It takes even more in a person to say that they relapsed after five years.
I can, and I am sure others can still learn a whole lot from you.
You are an articulate, clever, compassionate lady who is loved by others.
I think as soon as you pick yourself and up dust yourself down, your going to do great!
xxxx
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Originally Posted by ThankGodForAA
4 years is a long time, unforgettably this disease is cunning baffling and powerful! I can identify with the relapses, i dont know about you, but for me when I drank again it was due to the fact I failed to enlarge my spiritual life and was not helping others!
Thank God you made it back without a major debacle, far to many go out and never come back due to ego and pride. Only to suffer an alcoholic death.
Right now I bet your more willing then ever to do the work, which is a blessing. Please get in touch with someone who can help you though the work aka the Steps. It is not unheard of people going out with 5 10 even 30 years I have heard one case.
Remember, WE get sober, I drink. WE, first word first step!
Inbox me for my number, I have no problem helping you out if you ever need someone to talk to!
It would be my honor!
Thank God you made it back without a major debacle, far to many go out and never come back due to ego and pride. Only to suffer an alcoholic death.
Right now I bet your more willing then ever to do the work, which is a blessing. Please get in touch with someone who can help you though the work aka the Steps. It is not unheard of people going out with 5 10 even 30 years I have heard one case.
Remember, WE get sober, I drink. WE, first word first step!
Inbox me for my number, I have no problem helping you out if you ever need someone to talk to!
It would be my honor!
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It is so good to see you here again!
I relapsed after 4 years clean/sober so I understand what you are feeling.
I picked myself up and started over again. I have faith you will move forward in your recovery!
I relapsed after 4 years clean/sober so I understand what you are feeling.
I picked myself up and started over again. I have faith you will move forward in your recovery!
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Originally Posted by Dee74
I'm sorry for what bought you back VB but I'm glad you're here
It's a good place to be
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It's a good place to be
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I am back, I am starting to do the right thing, again, and I am so glad this site still exists.
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