beherenow

I decided that enough was enough (again) last Sunday, after drunk texting a friend of mine and not remembering a thing I had written. She tells me a couple of days later "um, you drink too often and when you do, you drink TOO much"!

So, I thought it would be a good idea to see how I would feel going 7 days straight without a drink -- which includes the dreaded weekend -- where I usually get loaded Friday and/or Saturday night for sure. I usually go a few days between drinks, drinking 3-4 times a week, but I wanted to see how it would feel to go a full 7 days.

I was thinking, no sweat, piece of cake, I can go a few days between drinking, I can prove to myself this isn't a problem.

WRONG!! Here I am, day 7 sober. Every single night I've had to talk myself out of drinking. I sit here today eating my weight in peanut butter cups and distracting myself by playing with my kid (not a bad thing) -- really doing anything to not think about drinking.

I may be a "heavy drinker" or a "high functioning" alcoholic, but really, do labels matter? Drinking ALCOHOL should NOT be this important to me.

Thanks for letting me share.

2013

Sounds like an epic discovery to me. This sort of a-ha moment is why I have decided to give up drinking altogether. It's just BOOZE. Why do we let it dominate practically every breathing moment, either thinking about it, getting it, drinking it, cursing it, etc. Life has so much more to offer. I don't think I'm truly living anymore. I feel like an automaton, a slave to alcohol, just going through the motions and listening to my mind play games with me about drinking.

My quit date is in a week, January 1. Would love it if you joined me.

justanother1

What about making it 2 weeks sober? Good luck!

Fernaceman

Hey there! Keep pluggin away, it gets better!

And you are correct my friend; people without drinking problems don't often wonder if they have a drinking problem.

2013

Actually, I should have said, you've come this far - KEEP IT UP!! ... and I'll be joining YOU next week. Forgive the foggy brain.

tomsteve

gettin sober was a fight and not easy. staying sober has been. it took some major changes in me and my attitude, changes that required a fight, but it was worth every second.
ODAAT.

keep it up. it will get easier.

hamabi

Alcoholics often can go many weeks or months without a drink. If 7 days is very hard for you, perhaps seeing a medical professional now is indicated for any extra help they can afford you in stopping.

You may have drank past the terms you're most comfortable in using for your condition.

beherenow

Fernaceman -- a little background -- my father is a recovering alcoholic with 30+ years of sobriety. I have questioned my drinking since I began. With my dad in recovery most of my life, I've been aware of what alcoholism is, in general terms, most of my life.

Hamabi -- that is food for thought for sure. Thank you!

beherenow

and 2013 that is awesome!
I may be joining you - but today, I'm not drinking...at least not this minute

Everyone have a great day!

Xune

The question remains, what are you going to do about it?

Ghostly

Congrats on the sober time!

Just FYI,

When I quit, I only planned on quitting 5 days, Mon - Fri, just to see how it would go and if I could do it. I made it the five, and then just kept going with it. That was over 2 and a half years ago.

Good luck.

sugarbear1

Congrats on 7 days!

Is dad in AA?

beherenow

Xune today I'm going to stay sober. I am focusing on enjoying my kids through the holidays. I need to talk to my husband about the obsessive thoughts.

Sugarbear-- yes. He is very active in the program.