Looking at my life.... the second part
Looking at my life.... the second part
So, my first sober birthday in 22 years!!!
I turned 40 last Saturday. I had a get-together with my closest friends that involved staying in some lovely hotels on a weekend away.
At one point I seriously considered having a glass of wine or champagne to celebrate, but that feeling passed.
What stopped me was looking at how my life has changed in the 11 months since I quit drinking.
I look better - my skin is clear, my eyes bright, my mental health is fine, no waking up feeling self-loathing and hatred. I smile every day.
I am doing two courses (one to be a healthcare assistant,which will finish in May and help me finance a counselling and psychotherapy degree I am also doing.
My finances are not great (very difficult to get work in Ireland but my healthcare course will help a lot), but I am on top of things.
I count my blessings and see this as the start of the second part of my life. My life has real meaning and promise now.
I am so glad I will not be drinking through part two. Drinking never bought me the happiness and contentment I feel now.
Sobriety is really living!!! I kidded myself for far too long.
I turned 40 last Saturday. I had a get-together with my closest friends that involved staying in some lovely hotels on a weekend away.
At one point I seriously considered having a glass of wine or champagne to celebrate, but that feeling passed.
What stopped me was looking at how my life has changed in the 11 months since I quit drinking.
I look better - my skin is clear, my eyes bright, my mental health is fine, no waking up feeling self-loathing and hatred. I smile every day.
I am doing two courses (one to be a healthcare assistant,which will finish in May and help me finance a counselling and psychotherapy degree I am also doing.
My finances are not great (very difficult to get work in Ireland but my healthcare course will help a lot), but I am on top of things.
I count my blessings and see this as the start of the second part of my life. My life has real meaning and promise now.
I am so glad I will not be drinking through part two. Drinking never bought me the happiness and contentment I feel now.
Sobriety is really living!!! I kidded myself for far too long.
I have real ambition these days. When drinking, life was just a case of going through the motions.
I did consider a glass of something on my birthday, but I just thought, no way am I giving up this new life for anything - and that is coming from a woman that looooooooooooooooved her wine!!!!
I have never been happier, never, than I am now.
Stay strong, happier. You can do this. And if you are just starting out, can I recommend watching Rain in My Heart on youtube. It kept me strong in the early months.
xxx
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I have watched it. Agree that it is helpful to see and leaves an impression.
I feel good not drinking. I am looking forward to the love and zeal of life again. The pre-drinking joy and happiness. I have mostly good days and am experiencing these good things more and more often but also know that there is more for me to learn and experience. I am excited and grateful for that.
I feel good not drinking. I am looking forward to the love and zeal of life again. The pre-drinking joy and happiness. I have mostly good days and am experiencing these good things more and more often but also know that there is more for me to learn and experience. I am excited and grateful for that.
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Join Date: Sep 2012
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Happy (post) Birthday! And a fellow scorpio ;-) We know our stubborn traits and you've done an amazing thing. It sounds like you've truly passed that last hurdle, like you talk about alcohol in the past tense.
Brilliant gift to have for a birthday.
Brilliant gift to have for a birthday.
Thanks everyone somuch for all your encouraging words
This is the second half of my life and I am not going to balls it up. I am determined.
I think back to when I first joined here and the thought of never drinking again terrified me. I am so far from that now. The thought of my life going back to what it was it what terrifies me now.
I never would have envisioned feeling like this back then
This is the second half of my life and I am not going to balls it up. I am determined.
I think back to when I first joined here and the thought of never drinking again terrified me. I am so far from that now. The thought of my life going back to what it was it what terrifies me now.
I never would have envisioned feeling like this back then
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