Horrible Memories returning at night

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10-03-2012, 10:55 PM

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RunnerMD2be

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Horrible Memories returning at night

Hey all, it's been a while since I've posted. I have about 7 and a half months sober...not a dang drop of alcohol! Anyways. I've found certain drunk memories returning at night...certain things that I really wish never would have happened. I can see how remembering how I got here is helpful, but sometimes I just want to move on, and I feel like I should be looking forward, not back. I spoke with my sponsor about it, and he seemed to think it was normal and healthy.

Sometimes I keep myself up over wondering "what would have happened if..." ...if I hadn't noticed the stop sign at the last second and slammed into the tree while I was drunk. ...if I had passed out and never woke up....if I had gotten arrested for a DUI... None of those things have happened...YET.

Thanks for letting me ramble

10-03-2012, 11:06 PM

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MrDavid

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Re:Horrible Memories returning at night

Congrats on month 7. It's not so much about the 'yet' today as it is the 'again'. The yet can still happen but the again is how it happens, dream or no dream. Maybe some cognitive therapy can help, like it did me. Thanks again for keeping it green. Keep that momentum going.