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decided it was time for a new thread as i'm no longer falling off the wagon. today is day 30 and i'm slowly, steadily moving forward. it's a new awareness of the world every day, and it's a warm smile and forgiving eyes, and it's learning, ever so cautiously, how to connect again. it is life in the sunlight, rather than the shadows.
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NC, the best part is that you never really stop growing, like water flowing over rocky terrain you adapt to whatever life throws at you. You roll with the flow accepting all of it with a quiet mind at peace with yourself and the world around you.
I believe that serenity lives in a quiet mind and most of the good things are born out of that. I think that the ability to "roll with the flow" is a learned thing, it doesn't just happen. When the cravings are strong and resolve is weak is when the realization that thoughts are just thoughts and you don't have to act on any of them comes into play. The more you harness that ability the more natural it becomes and it will carry over into other areas of your life.
Best of wishes in everything going forward, you have the knowledge and that book inside of you waiting to be written. "Once more unto the breach" was the early work, next up is "Beyond the breach, walking the path with heart".
I believe that serenity lives in a quiet mind and most of the good things are born out of that. I think that the ability to "roll with the flow" is a learned thing, it doesn't just happen. When the cravings are strong and resolve is weak is when the realization that thoughts are just thoughts and you don't have to act on any of them comes into play. The more you harness that ability the more natural it becomes and it will carry over into other areas of your life.
Best of wishes in everything going forward, you have the knowledge and that book inside of you waiting to be written. "Once more unto the breach" was the early work, next up is "Beyond the breach, walking the path with heart".
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Hi NobleCause...so happy to hear you are doing well. I followed the old "breach" thread you had a while back. I have always had complete faith in you 
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Originally Posted by soberlicious 
I have always had complete faith in you
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encountered a streak of stupid, stressful days recently, the sort i used to drink away. the cap of it all was an event for work last nite, a cocktail party with an amusingly complex signature drink menu and really, really good scotch. (i did just dandy with a club soda and my sober wit.) only one person seemed to notice that i was back on the wagon - a colleague whom i generally don't prefer, and whom i noticed was doubling down on his doubles each time he went to the bar (oldest open bar trick in the book). he eventually approached, and asked loudly why i wasn't joining in the celebration. 'oh but i am celebrating,' i said, grinning, and really, i was.
at the moment he'd walked up, i'd been taking stock of the room and the players and, remembering work party debacles past, the fragility of it all. i thought about the time a former boss called the cops to drag me out of a holiday party in a five star restaurant (blackout, thankfully the charges were dropped), and the time i challenged the hr director at another former workplace to fight (blackout, thankfully this ridiculous offer was declined). then i thought about how neither of those things would happen that night. sipping on my club soda, i drank in the sweet relief of that knowledge with relish.
my colleague mumbled a bit, sort of confused, attempted to lean on something that wasn't there, and stumbled away. i did a victory lap of handshakes and then slipped out, celebrating at home with the extra good rooibos tea.
at the moment he'd walked up, i'd been taking stock of the room and the players and, remembering work party debacles past, the fragility of it all. i thought about the time a former boss called the cops to drag me out of a holiday party in a five star restaurant (blackout, thankfully the charges were dropped), and the time i challenged the hr director at another former workplace to fight (blackout, thankfully this ridiculous offer was declined). then i thought about how neither of those things would happen that night. sipping on my club soda, i drank in the sweet relief of that knowledge with relish.
my colleague mumbled a bit, sort of confused, attempted to lean on something that wasn't there, and stumbled away. i did a victory lap of handshakes and then slipped out, celebrating at home with the extra good rooibos tea.
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Re:Progress I’m so happy for you Nobel Cause. Day 30 must feel exhilarating by now, maybe even a blessing I suppose. I guess our past has no real attachments after all, just suspicions. I only hope you take it with the same grain of salt as we do. Onward…
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