seanie1888

Hi peeps,
I thought i could go to a weddin on Sat, but guess wat i'm still drinking.

said to self few, be ok sun! no way hi

Drank sun, mon and today.

its really s*** it cant be 1 day.

Jeni26

Well I could drink for 1 day. I did it when I relapsed. Just 1 day, but I poured enough vodka down my throat to kill me. Luckily it didnt. That was the day I quit for good.
Maybe time for you to accept you will never be able to drink normally again? I have, and it's a big relief to give up that constant fight now.
Good luck Seanie x

BackToSquareOne

Yes, that whole "I'll just have a few" idea never works out too well does it? My last few turned into a 2 week long bender that landed me in the hospital, that was 4 years ago .

Caledonia1

Know that feeling only too well. I finally surrendered 6 months ago and now understand this allergy/addiction and actually enjoy learning more through A.A. Please concider that unfortunately for people like you and I we can't just "have the one"
Hope you find the strenght to recover soon.
Take care

stairs

I had binged and was hurting. I was on day 3 or 4 of my quit and felt like total cr*p.

I drank 2 beers. Next day I drank 4. Next day it was 6 then I went out and got another 6 pack. No way does it ever stop with a couple, or one day, for me.

*Hugs*

CarolD

Welcome back...

foodie1

Totally get that Seanie, it's just never, never enough! I always want more. In a weird way this helps me now. Whenever I get a craving I ask myself, "well, how many do I want? what would make me feel good? how many would be enough?" When I realize I can't pin down a number, I'm done! And for some reason that makes it easier not to have the first one, because I know there will be absolutely NO satisfaction. It's never enough. So I stopped trying to make it enough.

All the best to you Seanie

Sunny27

That is the way I look at it as well. I know if I was to have a glass of wine, I would want many more. That is the way it always has been and the next time will be no different.

I am in Ireland as well, Seanie, and I know how it can be. But I have a sober wedding under my belt now and I have a bithday weekend away for a friend this weekend and my own birthday away in October and wont be drinking at either.

Six months ago that thought would have terrified me, now it is just par ofthe course.

Try a different way, Seanie. It works for me. I just don't pick up that first drink anymore.

Good luck.

seanie1888

Thank you all for kind comments

Dee74

Sometimes we need to learn a lesson over, I guess, mate.
Welcome back Seanie

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seanie1888

Yes Dee I need to learn it over.

Well I drank all flaming week, even this morning, but got meds from doc and none in 9 1/2 hours, its been a very rough day and i'm not looking forword to tonite, but it has to be done.
Just have to face facts I cant even drink one

penny74

l do not envy you.
Be strong and this too shall pass.

Hevyn

Hi seanie. Glad you lived to tell the tale, and came back to discuss it.

Once I finally got it through my dense skull that there could never, ever be 'just a few', I was able to let go of it. I struggled for many years trying to use my willpower. It never worked, not once.

You can do it, seanie. Maybe that was a lesson well learned. We are here for you.

seanie1888

Thanks Hevyn,
Yeah really hope lesson has been learnt this time.
I always start to struggle from 6 weeks.
I use bits of AA and AVRT, mayb I should pick 1 or the other

Username1

all the time ill have nights ill drink maybe 2-3. Then the next night I'll black out and continue doing that for a week month year.

backbeat

I'm right here with you. 2 days in. I do the exact same thing you just did, over and over and over. Convinced I really can have a social drink if I just put my mind to it.

The truth is I never have any intention of having just one or two. Ever. It's missing the point. Consuming alcohol, for me, is to put the pedal to the metal. I am making progress accepting that.

You can do this. We are all here for each other in the same boat.

RevivingOphelia

Seanie,

I'm with you in the starting over. and over. and over again. We have to not stop trying.
I'm thinking of you and wishing you strength to get through the early days.

seanie1888

Day 2 nearly over and thank God for Librium.
It was not really plesant but i've been through worse. I kept myself super busy today,
never done as much cleaning, Mrs house should be happy when she gets home from work.
Yeah def guys, just not even 1 has to be way.
care all

TM75

One day never works. We kid ourselves that we can 'control' it but we can't. In my case one day usually turns into a two week bender. The first drink is always too many. Be strong