So desperate for a drink..
So desperate for a drink..
Hi everyone.
Well, I'm 19 days sober today, been going to meetings, speaking to my sponsor everyday. But it's been a daily, sometimes hourly struggle.
I have been having violent storms of depression and anxiety. I have been in bed all day, as I didnt feel safe anywhere else.
I'm still waiting to go to rehab, and I'm scared of that too. I'm just praying I can get through until midnight, when it won't be possible to buy any alcohol.
Well, I'm 19 days sober today, been going to meetings, speaking to my sponsor everyday. But it's been a daily, sometimes hourly struggle.
I have been having violent storms of depression and anxiety. I have been in bed all day, as I didnt feel safe anywhere else.
I'm still waiting to go to rehab, and I'm scared of that too. I'm just praying I can get through until midnight, when it won't be possible to buy any alcohol.
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19 days is a long time to drop off now.. You should be on the phone ASAP with your sponsor and sharing this with her, I'm sure she would drop what she's doing to deal with you! If she doesn't answer... call another member! You need to fight this hard... Do you have any CANDY? Believe it or not, this can help tremendously in the beginning and as needed... keep hard candies in your pocket...Also, I drink cranberry juice to help with my sugar lows as well... If the depression/anxiety continues you need to visit a mental health doctor! I had to a little over 1 month ago and do not regret it, my anxiety was hard to deal with along with sobriety and that's what I sense in you.. Don't stay in bed, get outside and walk in the sun if you can... Also, meditation will help you as well...like this found on youtube... maybe you find one that suits you..
Try Self-hypnosis meditation for ending Anxiety, panic, anger and depression - YouTube
CALL YOUR SPONSOR.... DON'T FORGET...
Try Self-hypnosis meditation for ending Anxiety, panic, anger and depression - YouTube
CALL YOUR SPONSOR.... DON'T FORGET...
My heart goes out to you. When we put down alcohol there's still withdrawal but that does change. I described early sobriety as PMS in a full moon! It's only today we must not drink. I'm still saying that after 20+ years.
Thank you everyone. My sponsor calls every day for precisely one hour. She doesnt like it if I call her outside that time. I feel shy to call others at this time of night, though if I feel worse I will call the helpline. Maybe I'll try the chat room in a bit.
Feel better for your replies. God this is a beast of an illness, isn't it?
Feel better for your replies. God this is a beast of an illness, isn't it?
My doctor recently switched my medication for anxiety and depression to fit in with the rehab requirements, so I think that is part of the problem.
I'm on a waiting list too Sally, mine is for Cognative Behavural Therapy for my anxiety. They said it could be weeks, maybe months Its funny, I was on a waiting list for a tooth extraction check up (something I need, but don't want) this appointment came through in hours! Can't complain though... its all free Glad you made it through the night! x
19 days on bed would drive anyone 'round the bend, sally. Hard to stay sober like that. Enjoyment is crucial, IME. I was miserable sober every time but the last. In retrospect I rigged it that way to excuse my return to the bottle.
Try and get out and do something, ok? Even a cup of coffee with your sponsor.
Something that helped me in those early days was little reminders that there was nothing wrong, unusual or unexpected about an alcoholic wanting a drink. Even really really wanting one. Let the craving wash over you. It'll pass. I haven't had a serious craving in forever.
Try and get out and do something, ok? Even a cup of coffee with your sponsor.
Something that helped me in those early days was little reminders that there was nothing wrong, unusual or unexpected about an alcoholic wanting a drink. Even really really wanting one. Let the craving wash over you. It'll pass. I haven't had a serious craving in forever.
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