easyrider73

Hello all, I'm new here and was sober for over a year. About 2 weeks ago I drank and had severe anxiety the next day, I stayed dry for another week but now I'm slipping into another binge, I'm on day 3 of the binge.. How do I get rid of this nasty crutch? I'm waking up and feeling so much anxiety all over again..Why me?

sugarbear1

what helped you the time you had one year?

FlyerFan

Have you tried a recovery program? There are many available to choose from, or try a combination of a few.

tomsteve

1st, do you want to stop drinking? are you willing to do whatever ya gota do to stop drinking??

easyrider73

I want to stop drinking..I just don't understand why can't I be normal and have a beer or two and stop. its like onece I have one it leads to a week long binge!!

FlyerFan

Because alcoholics can never drink like normal people. It's that simple. Your body reacts to alcohol differently then the average "normal" drinker.

None of us wanted to admit we were alcoholics, but it can become a lot easier to handle once you can see and admit that. You just have to be willing. Personally I choose AA, but I know there are several other programs available if AA is not your cup of tea.

tomsteve

because you are an alcoholic. there aint nothing wrong with being an alcoholic and knowing it. the problem comes when its being an alcoholic, knowing what it means to be an alcoholic, and not doin anything about it.

ya proly cant drink like them normies because you are powerless over alcohol.

all ya gotta do to get a start on the road to reovery is stop asking why and wondering why and accept it.

hypochondriac

Ah, the beer fear...I had horrible anxiety from drinking too Easyrider. I had two choices, be permanently drunk, or never drink again...

I'm really sorry that you are suffering right now.

What has happened to you is my worst fear, that one day I will think it's okay to just have a few, and that I will just carry on drinking. In my efforts to avoid that I am looking into any program that I feel will help. I started off with AVRT and, along with various other books I am reading, I have started going to AA meetings. There are also going to be some SMART meetings started up in the city I live in.

Did you have support when you quit for a year? Personally I couldn't even have stopped drinking if it wasn't for the support I got from other alcoholics. Otherwise I would feel like I was the only one who couldn't drink normally, whereas in actual fact there are loads of us out there. Spend lots of time on here or head to AA, that usually puts a stop to any of my 'why me's!

I'm really glad that you found SR days into your binge rather than years x

MetalChick

Looks like you are going to have to dust yourself off and start again. Figure out why you picked up, and move on. Maybe you thought it had been a year and you could handle a few drinks? IDK. Why do you think you drank again?

Figuring out why we can't be normal doesn't change it, right? Were you testing that again?

CarolD

Welcome to our recovery community....

Perhaps this link will answer some of your questions
It's from the book that convinced me to quit.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html

While not everything pertained to my drinking time....it helped
me understand why I continued to drink after I decided to stop.

Yes I too had false starts before I found lasting recovery...