blakezly

Ok so not sure if its cause im not drinking, of if im really this unhappy and my lack of alcohol is just making it painfully obvious .... i really dont like my life.my husband is just always wanting afignt and says thing out of line all the time.... i hate my life.

Dee74

Feeling irritable and uncomfortable and dissatisfied is very very normal Bazely.
It gets better

I always tried to think of the many things I had to be grateful for - it sounds like the last thing you'd want to do, but it works

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Muunray

Can you take a walk? Or even just sit outside and try to relax and listen to the world around you? Find a good book to read or movie to watch? Time to pamper yourself.

MetalChick

I like to tune and out and play Xbox or watch a good movie when I get like that

blakezly

Went out and did some gardening..... feel better, just need to figure things out!!! Thanks for listening.....

tomsteve

yup. without the alcohol depressing everything, its all at the surface now. do you have any plans on what yer gonnna do to change you and stay sober?

blakezly

Not yet, take each day and try to figure out whats up...... like i said not sure if im unhappy, or if im no longer numb to things,or if this is part...... i mean being super crabby... i hope time will help to tell. Im not really sur why i drank, is it to be numb..... i had a really bad childhood, my dad is a drunk, i got married young. To find out he was a cheater, got divorced by age 24, a couple bad relationships, but on the same note, i had an awesome mom who raised me, im very successful, i have a great house and farm, i have awesome sisters and nieces and nephews..... wish i could figure out what triggered my alcoholism. I can blame my husband, but this started before him..... or at least was well on its way.