bloss

Today I am feeling annoyed about small things, which normally would not bother me. Even some of the posts on SR are disturbing me. I don't think I'm gearing up to drink again. Not sure what is going on, so I will talk to someone I trust and share my feelings. Probably should of put this in my blog instead. Guess I could phrase it as a question to myself and anyone out there who is interested:

Have minor irritations (left unresolved) served as a threat to sobriety?

Sudz No More

For me the answer is no. It is that pesky Monkey on my back that keeps putting the bottle to my lips. In the past, big problems or other stressful situations have triggered me but small stuff I usually have been able to look past.

Compulsion is my biggest enemy in staying sober. If I can just clear that hurdle I'll be good to go.

I hope whatever is bothering you, small or otherwise it goes away.

Come in here and rant if it helps. we are listening...

suki44883

I think that pretty much anything can be used as an excuse to drink. Everyone has off days. There are days where I feel successful that I made it through without beating someone to death with a chair.

While there are certain things, people, and places we can avoid, we can't avoid everyone and there are just some days where we are irritable, just like anyone else. It's only a threat to your sobriety if you allow it to be.

RobbyRobot

I don't see 'threats' to my sobriety, never have looked at it that way. That kinda of thinking is a bit defeated out of the gate, and not helpful for keeping sober, imo.

I know only alcohol itself can get me drunk if I drink it. Sobriety actually has very little to do with alcohol, is my experience. Living sans-alcohol pretty well proves alcohol has nothing to do with my sober living.

Needing to re-construct my life, my mind, my body, my spirit -- yeah, these have everything to do with my sobriety.

I do not war with alcohol, or alcoholism anymore. And when I did, I was drinking, of course, because my fighting against alcoholism was never ever gonna help me stop drinking.

I can't really conceive of a real threat to my sobriety, you know? Sounds kinda wtf, but there it is nonetheless: I'll never get drunk again, and I've been saying so for over 30 years now, right from Day 1 to today, and it just keeps getting better.

Surrender. Surrender. Surrender.

bloss

Thanks for the input, going to talk to someone now about these feelings. Think its just a lot of little issues all at the same time. I'll blog about the outcome tomorrow. I just need to not keep feelings and so on a secret, this leads to trouble for me. So if I put it out online or to someone it seems to lessen it. Don't know if that makes sense, just the way it is for me.

DAB

When I feel that way I go to a meeting, it helps me every time.