tornbetweendays

So much time spent trying thrown away, right back to day 0.

No sense trying to make sense of it. Thrown in the towel, not sure when I'll care again. Some circumstances have a way of rendering the Alcoholic in me completely vulnerable. I post here now to remind myself of where I want to be but I am in no mental shape to muster a fight at this time.

The time will come again soon enough and when it does I will do it on my own terms.

Busyb

Maybe doing things your way is the problem. AA works by doing the steps and letting go. I have a good feeling that you will stop again and try again. Think positive and don't stop getting on here. Reach out to safe places and people. Dont forget it!!

tornbetweendays

You're right Busyb. I need to find support from people that understand how aggressive the Alcoholic mind is. I have resisted AA but maybe it is time to consider it.

Dee74

Welcome tornbetweendays

I did this a lot - almost as I was ceding control to my addiction and letting it set my timetable.

You and I are the ones that can save our lives TBD.

Forget about whatever is happening in your life or in your head...there is never 'a good time to quit' - you know that right?

It's hard, it's uncomfortable and it will take effort but if you want to stop the spiral, you absolutely can.

The first step is reaching out and finding support. If AA sounds like a good idea to you - go for it

D

CarolD

Welcome to our SR Alcoholism Forum....

Yes drinking took me into all sorts of situations that seemed
hopeless and dark. So I drank to get thru them...and of
course nothing positive happened.

Yes...please do be pro active about your drinking...sobreity certainly
settled my brain and helped me immensley regardless of what
I was going thru.....

You will find lots of support here....please keep posting...we care...

doggonecarl

Welcome to SR. If I get you right, you've relapsed and because of that you are giving up on recovery? At least for the time being?

Or not. How many shots at recovery do we have, really? Don't risk there not being another one.

There is failing, and there is failing to try. Don't be the latter.

Good luck.

aussieblue

I hope you don't give up. I have relapsed recently myself but I am not giving up I am just going to try again, I hope you will too.

Hevyn

Torn - the time you invested was not wasted - you learned something. I tried many times, but finally got it right. You sound ready to do this, and I hope you'll get back to reclaiming your life. You can do this.

freshstart57

The door out of this hell is right in front of you, TornBD. You have it within you to do this next great thing for yourself. I think you are worth it.

tornbetweendays

Thanks everyone, I feel a bit better from your support. Tomorrow is another day...