Will2011

(Inspired by a thread recently) I know im an alcoholic because...

...i kept to beer as much as i could , usually starting with a crate (because i was scared of how drunk i got on spirits).
...my quasi-restraint would fail and id drink spirits.
...i hid my empty cans/bottles in the attic and crept out of the house to buy alcohol.
...i stole parents alcohol.
...i would be very anxious if the off-liscense had closed and i had to endure a night without booze.
...i passed out once whilst in an awkward position and now have neuralgia in my left arm.
..id alienated most of my friends and family.
...i drank 1.5 litre bottle of vodka and 13 beers in one bender.
...i drank 50 beers, couple bottles of cider, couple bottles of wine, a bottle of vodka in a single weekend
...i didnt get drunk in front of my family, only in private.
...i had no dignity and lived like an animal in a filthy room.
...id avoid going out of my room to avoid judgment of others
...i couldnt finish uni whist drinking.
...it took a year of false starts to finally quit.
...im now on a high dose of antidepressants because alcohol robbed me of my peace of mind
...Its been 14 months and i wouldnt swap my sobriety for anything.

Will2011

Think that just about covers it. Im off to bed!

CarolD

Good for you....quitting is the best thing I ever did for myself..
Glad you are continueing your journey...

I realized I was an alcoholic when I continued to drink
even tho I desperately wanted to stop.
So grateful I finally got clarity and moved forward.

VismundCygnus

Touching.. Little shocked with how many applied to me.

Best of luck to you. Onwards and Upwards

winslynn

I know I am an alcoholic because I have lost control of my drinking.......and I have also lost control of my sobriety.Can't drink and can't stay sober,a hell of a fix to be in.

RaiseAnchor

I would do this thing where I would like, try to hide my cans under things in the bottom of the trash can, even though I really had no one or no reason to hide it. I think it was just for my own personal disbelief.

Will2011

aha no ryhme or reason to an alcoholic mind afterall. I actually got rid of about two full bin bags of cans by enlisting an accomplice to drive them with me to the dump. Genius.

Everytime my family doubts if i am an alcoholic all i need to do is refer to this thread and renew my convitcion that im on this 'slippery slope' with you guys.

Threshold

I knew I was because

I hid bottles of liquor in the wheel well of my trunk so I could drive to the woods to get drunk after work without my family knowing about it...they thought I was hiking.

I kept bottles of liquor and a shot glass in the vanity cabinet in my bathroom.

I began asking for alcohol as gifts.

I spent my compensation package after being laid off on booze.

I got so drunk at a friends wedding that I was behaving worse than her mom, who IS an alcoholic and usually gets pretty loud and stupid at events.

Payton

I drank half a bottle of wine, and in the morning poured water in the bottle to make it look fuller. That's the most alcoholic thing I could possibly do.

David 1

Pretty much all of the above, except for falling asleep on my arm. I somehow avoided that one!


The bad part is in the end, we are really only fooling ourselves!

Dave