You Guys Are Right...Another Slip
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You Guys Are Right...Another Slip
I'm going to be honest with my group tonite. I had a horrible slip yesterday again. It's like the "monster" is on my back again. I hate it. I hate the feeling of needing alcohol to cope with life. I know these slips will eventually lead me back to everyday drinking/drugging. I'm not afraid of dieing in my addiction, I'm more afraid of living in the hell of addiction for another 10-20 years.
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I'm sorry you're feeling down - but glad you're talking about it. Once I gave up the idea that booze was going to make me feel better (about anything) I was able to stop reaching for it every time I had a problem. It took me many years to finally get it, though.
It sounds like you've learned from the slip. You know there's nothing but misery when you pick up. Just keep moving along - you can do this.
It sounds like you've learned from the slip. You know there's nothing but misery when you pick up. Just keep moving along - you can do this.
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I think it might be helpful for you to post exactly what you were thinking when you decided to drink again. Often it is our thinking that is more of a problem than anything. Perhaps you might get some help with it.
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I'm right there with you JF1. Let's just both get back on the right track and learn from our mistakes. Remind ourselves what we did wrong the last time. No sense in dwelling on what is done, just go back to what worked for us and stick to it.
I literally may write out a list and keep it in my pocket, I will take it out and look at it when I get weak.
I literally may write out a list and keep it in my pocket, I will take it out and look at it when I get weak.
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Originally Posted by Justfor1 
I'm going to be honest with my group tonite. I had a horrible slip yesterday again. It's like the "monster" is on my back again. I hate it. I hate the feeling of needing alcohol to cope with life. I know these slips will eventually lead me back to everyday drinking/drugging. I'm not afraid of dieing in my addiction, I'm more afraid of living in the hell of addiction for another 10-20 years.
Now that is HONESTY! :ghug3
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We've been there, that is why we suggested otherwise. It's not about being right today, it's about trying to help someone else. We can't have experiences for you, but we can support your decisions or let you know how we feel (for me, based on my own experience).
Are you really ready to stay stopped yet? or Do you want to live in that vicious cycle?
Hugs,
Are you really ready to stay stopped yet? or Do you want to live in that vicious cycle?
Hugs,
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Originally Posted by Justfor1
I'm going to be honest with my group tonite. I had a horrible slip yesterday again. It's like the "monster" is on my back again. I hate it. I hate the feeling of needing alcohol to cope with life. I know these slips will eventually lead me back to everyday drinking/drugging. I'm not afraid of dieing in my addiction, I'm more afraid of living in the hell of addiction for another 10-20 years.
You can get off the garbage truck at any time.
I had to get down on my knees and truly ask God to help me. Then I got up and went to a meeting.
All the best.
Bob R
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Originally Posted by 2granddaughters
I had to get down on my knees and truly ask God to help me. R
At least you realize that if you continue to slip, you are going to be going thru hell with the hangovers and shakes.
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Originally Posted by indakut
Thats what I had to do.
At least you realize that if you continue to slip, you are going to be going thru hell with the hangovers and shakes.
At least you realize that if you continue to slip, you are going to be going thru hell with the hangovers and shakes.
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Justfor1, you're so right that addiction is hell. Just look at the insane ways we behave ... what we do to get drink, to over drink, to fight with people who don't understand why the hell we are acting so different when drunk, to struggle with the shame and guilt and then the lying. Not to mention the awful physical effects, which we pretend aren't there so we can appear normal. All to "protect" our drinking.
It is a monster, you're right about that. But you're smarter than the monster. And you really don't have to protect that monster anymore.
Just my $.02. I am still addressing this crap in my own life. But it sure helps to be able to talk to you and other SR people who get it.
very best wishes.
It is a monster, you're right about that. But you're smarter than the monster. And you really don't have to protect that monster anymore.
Just my $.02. I am still addressing this crap in my own life. But it sure helps to be able to talk to you and other SR people who get it.
very best wishes.
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Originally Posted by Justfor1
Thank you for everyones concern. No I haven't admitted it yet to my group. I'm sure there will be a few members that are happy that I slipped.
Why do you care about a couple of stupid people? You need to get over this "status" thing in your group. It is pretty silly.
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