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Hi guys,
I just want someone to help me understand. Why do alcoholics take so many
Unnecessary risks. I mean why does it seem like their alcohol is more important than their relationships, jobs, freedom and more importantly, themselves? I am in a relationship with an alcoholic and I'm just trying to understand him better. Thanks all.
I just want someone to help me understand. Why do alcoholics take so many
Unnecessary risks. I mean why does it seem like their alcohol is more important than their relationships, jobs, freedom and more importantly, themselves? I am in a relationship with an alcoholic and I'm just trying to understand him better. Thanks all.
Alcoholics lose choice. It's an addiction. The addiction is camouflaged as our personalities and our free choice, but it is neither. This is why the only diagnosis of alcoholism that matters is the alcoholics. We need to start seeing the insanity we've been fooled into protecting. The sense of choice is an illusion.
For example, my mother in law used to say "I just love to smoke cigarettes." They did nothing for her but remove the addiction for a few minutes. She died of lung cancer. So is it with alcohol and other addictive substances. The addiction uses our minds against us. Only we can change our minds... taking that power back is recovery.
For example, my mother in law used to say "I just love to smoke cigarettes." They did nothing for her but remove the addiction for a few minutes. She died of lung cancer. So is it with alcohol and other addictive substances. The addiction uses our minds against us. Only we can change our minds... taking that power back is recovery.
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agreed palemale... l non-alcoholics have a hard time understanding why an alcoholic does the things that they do. only your boyfriend can decide what he wants to do and when he wants to do it (change) when it comes to alcohol. the serenity prayer says it all for me not just about alcoholism but about everything in life.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change
The courage the change the things that i can
And the wisdom to know the difference
Ive only been sober for 11 days now but ive realized that the only thing i can change in any way that i want is myself, i have no power over other people and their actions. As much as i may want to be able to control other people that will just never happen and if i try its just going to eat me up inside and make me depressed and want to drink
GOD bless
God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change
The courage the change the things that i can
And the wisdom to know the difference
Ive only been sober for 11 days now but ive realized that the only thing i can change in any way that i want is myself, i have no power over other people and their actions. As much as i may want to be able to control other people that will just never happen and if i try its just going to eat me up inside and make me depressed and want to drink
GOD bless
The primitive brain evolved much earlier and is much stronger than the reasoning mind. Impulse trumps thinking. It is a huge battle to try and reverse that and get back some semblance of control. Personally, I can't have any money. My obsession is way too strong at this point. My wife gives me a dolllar for my daily meeting and that's it. The option of buying alcohol is off the table. It's the only way I can combat the disease right now. Perhaps someday I will be able to trust myself with money - but for now, if this is what it takes, so be it. It's way worth the inconvienence.
Grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change
The courage to change the one I can
and
The wisdom to know it's me.
For me, alcohol was my only tool for coping with the world. If you lose your coping tool (and it's a false tool) where does that leave you? I'm on day four and have found other avenues in coping with life's problems. Alcohol is a one road to a very dark place that I do not want to go. The alcoholic does not realize that they ( At least I wasn't) choosing alcohol over their loved ones. They have to be shown another way of coping. Hope this helps you.
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For me, alcohol was my only tool for coping with the world. If you lose your coping tool (and it's a false tool) where does that leave you? I'm on day four and have found other avenues in coping with life's problems. Alcohol is a one road to a very dark place that I do not want to go. The alcoholic does not realize that they ( At least I wasn't) choosing alcohol over their loved ones. They have to be shown another way of coping. Hope this helps you.
Scott
Scott
Coincidentally, I found this site and have been posting ever since. I find the ability to openly, but anonimously tell others on this site who have experience with the addiction what I am going through to be very helpful. I really find all of the comments quite informative in many respects.
I look back at the decisions I made when I was drinking - they seemed logical at the time, but they're insane now.
I hope your partner find the same 'moment of clarity' I did blackkitty - prayers for you both
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I hope your partner find the same 'moment of clarity' I did blackkitty - prayers for you both
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I chose alcohol over my family, friends, job and the list goes on because alcohol was more important to me that even my own health. Addiction had hijacked my brain, causing me to crave alcohol/drugs so intensely that I would do anything to satisfy my desires to get loaded.
The way out for me was to chose a practice of addiction treatment in place of my choice for alcohol.
The way out for me was to chose a practice of addiction treatment in place of my choice for alcohol.
So, this is the risk I dealt with. Now, alcohol did not become more important than my job, nor my girlfriend turned fiance turned wife...however, I could not keep drinking like I was and not have it affect my work. That was coming. That actually helped me out as I was getting scared of the amount it took for me to get wasted.
Still until that point... alcohol was my crutch, my bed, my fun, my E S C A P E...my medication to Numb the effin pain. So while alcohol wasn't everything...it WAS everything. I needed it to function. I needed it, I loved it, I embraced. These are the reasons for the risks we took. It ran things. Alcohol never got mad at me, never slapped me, never told me no...it embraced me and warmed me up.
I am so glad I broke free from that evil. Id be lying, if I didn't say that I want one more battle, battle with a bottle of vodka...that's what I want. It'd feel so good. The immediate warmth, the immediate being wasted as I suck it down. MMMMMMMMMM, yeah, I'd be lying if I said I didn't want that.
Ok...so I need to be on guard for how I feel. I have this to say to alcohol...this: You almost got me again. I got 677 days...and you ain't worth it. I'm staying sober.
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Hi Scott, thanks for taking the time to write back. I understand what you are saying and being Assn addict myself, I understand some parts of the alcoholic stuff. However, when I was string out on cocaine and I was about to lose my kids, I quit, immediately. That is the part I don't understand about alcoholics, isn't ANYTHING more important than their drinking? Erhart has to happen before they realize there is something wrong? I'm just confused. Thanks for your help.
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For me, there were a few things more important than alcohol. I NEVER drove drunk or even after one drink. I never would to kill anyone else. Slowly killing myself was okay though.
I thought my kids and husband were more important but I negelected them when I was drunk. I'd sit outside many nights and drink alone. My husband would give them their baths and tuck them in.
My little girl opened the door outside a couple weeks ago and said, "Mama, please come inside and put your "swine" down and kiss me nite-nite." I wasn't fooling her, she knew my "swine" was more important than kissing her goodnight. That was my wake up call. I wasn't just killing myself, but my family too.
Alcoholics lose their inhibitions. They are selfish and really don't care about anything but copping a buzz. For me, I saw my own mother that night. My little girl called me out and I swore I would never become a drunk like my mom. I realized I had..
I thought my kids and husband were more important but I negelected them when I was drunk. I'd sit outside many nights and drink alone. My husband would give them their baths and tuck them in.
My little girl opened the door outside a couple weeks ago and said, "Mama, please come inside and put your "swine" down and kiss me nite-nite." I wasn't fooling her, she knew my "swine" was more important than kissing her goodnight. That was my wake up call. I wasn't just killing myself, but my family too.
Alcoholics lose their inhibitions. They are selfish and really don't care about anything but copping a buzz. For me, I saw my own mother that night. My little girl called me out and I swore I would never become a drunk like my mom. I realized I had..
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I did a lot of dumb risky things too, all in the name of satisfying the need to refill my blood alcohol levels to where my addiction wanted it to be. This was of course disguised by how good a cold beer tasted. Looking back on it I recall endless times when I would be very critical of myself the next day, the next week etc. for what I had done or what I sacrificed or put second in favour of drinking beer for that moment. I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I kept doing it using the crutch that I will stop tomorrow, that went on for years and years.
What is important for me NOW is that I have accepted that it was wrong and that beer or any sort of alcohol is off my To Do List. I cannot dwell on the past misdeeds or stupid things that I did, the thousands upon thousands of dollars spend on alcohol ( I estimated about $75,000 over 13 years and all things considered I do not think that I am too far off the mark$) etc. What I have done (I only at 22 days sober by the way) is accept that what happened, how I behaved etc was due to the alcoholism and that if I return to it I will repeat the same behaviours no doubt.
One of my motivators to stay sober is that I never want to behave like that again. I know that I will if I give in to the urge to have a beer.
What is important for me NOW is that I have accepted that it was wrong and that beer or any sort of alcohol is off my To Do List. I cannot dwell on the past misdeeds or stupid things that I did, the thousands upon thousands of dollars spend on alcohol ( I estimated about $75,000 over 13 years and all things considered I do not think that I am too far off the mark$) etc. What I have done (I only at 22 days sober by the way) is accept that what happened, how I behaved etc was due to the alcoholism and that if I return to it I will repeat the same behaviours no doubt.
One of my motivators to stay sober is that I never want to behave like that again. I know that I will if I give in to the urge to have a beer.
Hi Scott, thanks for taking the time to write back. I understand what you are saying and being Assn addict myself, I understand some parts of the alcoholic stuff. However, when I was string out on cocaine and I was about to lose my kids, I quit, immediately. That is the part I don't understand about alcoholics, isn't ANYTHING more important than their drinking? Erhart has to happen before they realize there is something wrong? I'm just confused. Thanks for your help.
Anyway....this is the only reason I can think of why some alcoholic put their drink above their family. I'm sure there are a lot of other reasons.
Scott
The worse drug is whatever drug the addict is addicted to. Tell the mother who has seen their child curdle their brains, or worse, die, from huffing chemicals that alcohol is worse. Addiction, any addiction, is horrible.
Sorry you are having to bear the burden of a loved one suffering from this affliction.
Sorry you are having to bear the burden of a loved one suffering from this affliction.
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Hey I agree with that thing on the bottom about people with mood/mind disorders being twice as likely to abuse drugs, Ive been suffering from depression for all my life and ive been and am addicted to many things.
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