dawnie24

Its killing me. I'm driving people away that I love coz of my binge drinking,
My partners had enough he can't cope with me accusing him of cheating and lieing when he's not. My head is so messed up I need serious help.

Atm I'm laid on my sofa with my son asleep on me, I keep thinking I'm gonna die in my sleep or that I'm gonna hurt someone, I just want this anxiety gone I want the ME I used to know back coz now I don't know who I am anymore I don't want to live like this anymore its so scary

F355

I'm new to this myself; it seems like everyone struggles at first. Sobriety is a work in progress. Nobody gets it right the first time, or even the first few times. The point is to keep at it, keep learning, keep working on yourself, and remain vigilant at all times.

I hope you find the strength to keep trying, just as I am looking for that strength every day.

SoberDrunk

Find a meeting!!!!

dawnie24

I can never seem to get it right

dawnie24

I have found 3 meetings

PaperDolls

Pick one and get there.

You can do this!

dawnie24

Thank you, I've emailed another site about AA so its a good start, this time I wanna do it good and proper and never touch that evilness again

Dee74

I remember feeling that way too Dawnie.
The key really is action and making changes - I'll glad you're looking at your options

D

F355

Dawnie, I feel this way too: "I never seem to get it right." We are struggling against our own brain chemistry here. It is going to take a lot of continued effort to achieve our lofty goal of total sobriety.But we can do this!

Scolova

I hope you can get there Dawnie. There's nothing left in the bottle for me (unless I chose to go back to feeling that way), I'm so glad I can see that and control it now.
Best Wishes.

Hevyn

Dawnie - I always thought I'd never get it right. I was afraid of dying, too. I could feel reality slipping away. I was too scared to continue drinking - I wasn't ready to let go of my life. Sounds like you've reached that point too.

I know you can do this and have a whole new life - you sound fed up with the way things are, and you're ready to try again. Please don't give up on yourself, Dawnie. We all care about you.

dawnie24

Dee, it needs to be done don't it - I can do this

dawnie24

Thanx

dawnie24

You have come so far and you've done well I wish I could of stayed sober in october

dawnie24

I can feel my life slipping away and I know I need to change

penny74

Something has to change... so do it... get it sorted.

Demetris

I hear that..me too Dawnie..I feel same and it is soo frustrating. I know I am gonna do it..just gotta get off my butt and rise to the challenge! We can do it!

2granddaughters

dawnie, the fine folks in AA will be glad to meet you.

Wishing you the best.

Bob R

Muunray

I sometimes have to remind myself : "I can choose to never feel that way again."

neferkamichael

Hi Dawnie, it took me a long, long time to finally quit. You keep postin, so your not giving up. Prayin for ya!