Starring over
My bad I wasn't sure but thanks! We shall see.
I think this is day five, yep just checked day five. I'm still doing fine but I have been here before might go get some sushi (if I can find the place that I have been told sells it and go to the local craft market that I haven't been to before, see what they got.
INH
I think this is day five, yep just checked day five. I'm still doing fine but I have been here before might go get some sushi (if I can find the place that I have been told sells it and go to the local craft market that I haven't been to before, see what they got.
INH
Wondering if I should stop posting, I drank the last two days.... I hope to stop again today. Hmmm I am going to have to figure out something. Before I drank I went to the chat section because I figured I would just talk to someone and they could help me deal with the desire to drink, but no one was there. Argh! Then I started up my game but never actually got around to playing I just convinced myself to go to the store to get "soda" which was closed. better than the last time I suppose. Two days instead of four before I called it quits. But I really have to figure out a way to deal with the "urges". Most days I have no problem with not drinking but all of a sudden I will really really want a drink, and I haven't figured out how to say no to that yet.
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I went to the vitamin shop today and bought L Theanine to help with my anxiety ... weird thing was i was having a bit of a craving before I took and that stuff really relaxes you. Like you im a gamer so i started to relax and played some Skyrim and urge was gone. Its a supplement with no side effects. Im gonna try it if I get a hard craving and what it does. Good Luck!
@Post-I will look into the Theanine thanks.
Yesterday I went home and almost made it fine but then just sitting there in front of the computer I gave into the urge again.... I did force myself to buy Vodka instead or beer because I really don't like liquor it makes me gag, and I can't drink it as fast or as much as beer or I will throw up. That helped keep me from getting too drunk. I know, I know, it is still drinking. And I threw away what was left of the bottle this morning. The plan for tonight is right away when I get home change into the "I am going no where clothes that I have mentioned before and get into the chat room so that I have someone to talk to or start up a game. then try to go to sleep around ten, which probably wont work but if I can just get past that first couple of hours when I get home in the evenings I find that I am okay after.
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Yesterday I went home and almost made it fine but then just sitting there in front of the computer I gave into the urge again.... I did force myself to buy Vodka instead or beer because I really don't like liquor it makes me gag, and I can't drink it as fast or as much as beer or I will throw up. That helped keep me from getting too drunk. I know, I know, it is still drinking. And I threw away what was left of the bottle this morning. The plan for tonight is right away when I get home change into the "I am going no where clothes that I have mentioned before and get into the chat room so that I have someone to talk to or start up a game. then try to go to sleep around ten, which probably wont work but if I can just get past that first couple of hours when I get home in the evenings I find that I am okay after.
INH
I know the urges are strong. Relentless. But you can't stop drinking until you stop drinking. Sounds like a cliche, but it is the first step in recovery. You don't drink, no matter what.
Simple, but far from easy.
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I started with beer and started drinking liquor because I hated it to ... and thought hey theres less quantity and its better than drinking 4 24oz's ... big mistake I eventually went to drinking a pint a day. Be careful its a slippery slope
Your thread title got me to write a poem for you:
Starring over, there goes the darkness;
All I wish to see are stars and clear lights.
Darkness intrudes. WTF? I want it nicer.
I want a life of fabulous nights.
Starring over. Where is my insight?
I only see strangely dark spaces.
All the world’s pain is still here inside me;
What can I do to turn out those lights?
Starring over. Dawn star is lighting.
Orion is standing strong in the sky.
Starring over. Venus shining.
Today I will follow love and light.
Starring over, there goes the darkness;
All I wish to see are stars and clear lights.
Darkness intrudes. WTF? I want it nicer.
I want a life of fabulous nights.
Starring over. Where is my insight?
I only see strangely dark spaces.
All the world’s pain is still here inside me;
What can I do to turn out those lights?
Starring over. Dawn star is lighting.
Orion is standing strong in the sky.
Starring over. Venus shining.
Today I will follow love and light.
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Location: Skyrim, Tamriel
Posts: 27
Im on day 10 and the one thing thats keeping me from drinking is saving some cash for a new game that comes out on Tuesday. Im just trying to find reason's not to drink. I'll take any reason! Hang in there bud! And I swear EXERCISE is the biggest deterrence to drinking. Going for a nice long run kills the craving quite well. Good Luck!
I think I am still drunk from last night, I am at work but all I want to do is crawl under the desk and curl into a ball. I might here eventually. Not to sleep as I couldn't if I tried, but just to be quiet and not have to do anything. Just to lie there. It won't help get anything done I know that but it would feel better. I threw out all the beer last night, after waking up at two in the morning and pouring another, then realizing what a stupid idea that is, then got a glass of water and went to bed. Ugh today is going to be bad, all I look forward to is bed right now, but I will feel better here in a few hours. Hopefully tomorrow will be better, as I am not going to drink tonight. I have said that before though and did, but I can't as I have to be concious and alert in the morning.
INH
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And, at 1:00 pm the anziety hits. Wonderful... Here in a couple of hours it will be the shakes as well. FML
No one to blame but me, I did this to myself, and there is a price to pay.
INH
No one to blame but me, I did this to myself, and there is a price to pay.
INH
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