One year at SR, Four months sober.
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Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: Gulf Coast, TX
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One year at SR, Four months sober.
Been a member here at SR for around one year now.
I was (probably) a guest for a short time before that, but I sure can't remember much from those hopeless, wasted days.
I got 12 days sober in April 2011 which was awesome for me at that time, but I wasn't as ready as I needed to be, relapsed and drank away the Summer of 2011. Near killed myself with drink several times over the last decade, from the daily binge drinking itself as well as thoughts of suicide from dealing with the DTs, depression, anxiety and impending doom. I had lost so many abilities which the masses take for granted.
On September 22, 2011 I said; "Enough IS enough"
I Knew full well and Acknowledged that (without a doubt) I AM an alcoholic and will always suffer Complete Defeat against the drink, in any form and amount. I white knuckled my detox with the help of SR and a friend of was sober at that time (although he's back to drinking now
). I would not advise what I did to anyone unless you feel no other option, looking back; I could have stumble into the hospital and received help or an AA meeting for support, but the 'addict voice' was powerful and did not let that happen.
I now have 120+ (consecutive) days sober and too many 'First' to mentions, (i.e. 1st New Years sober.) and going strong. Of course I cannot just thank any one person or method in particular for my sobriety, but I can give a big and very grateful thank you to everyone who share their experiences, concern and time here. Whether to help others, help yourself or both, you help make SoberRecovery the life changing resource that it is.
Now I have hope in a purpose and a future for the first time in decades. Even though I don't yet know what it is, I know for certain I cannot succeed with any goals in my life with the sickness still active in my mind and body. Gaining strength to face my past, be honest with people about where I've been and prove to them through action not words that I can be relied upon in the future...
Just don't you go and expect me to be your drinking buddy... Ever, ever again.
:ghug3
I was (probably) a guest for a short time before that, but I sure can't remember much from those hopeless, wasted days.
I got 12 days sober in April 2011 which was awesome for me at that time, but I wasn't as ready as I needed to be, relapsed and drank away the Summer of 2011. Near killed myself with drink several times over the last decade, from the daily binge drinking itself as well as thoughts of suicide from dealing with the DTs, depression, anxiety and impending doom. I had lost so many abilities which the masses take for granted.
On September 22, 2011 I said; "Enough IS enough"
I Knew full well and Acknowledged that (without a doubt) I AM an alcoholic and will always suffer Complete Defeat against the drink, in any form and amount. I white knuckled my detox with the help of SR and a friend of was sober at that time (although he's back to drinking now
). I would not advise what I did to anyone unless you feel no other option, looking back; I could have stumble into the hospital and received help or an AA meeting for support, but the 'addict voice' was powerful and did not let that happen. I now have 120+ (consecutive) days sober and too many 'First' to mentions, (i.e. 1st New Years sober.) and going strong. Of course I cannot just thank any one person or method in particular for my sobriety, but I can give a big and very grateful thank you to everyone who share their experiences, concern and time here. Whether to help others, help yourself or both, you help make SoberRecovery the life changing resource that it is.
Now I have hope in a purpose and a future for the first time in decades. Even though I don't yet know what it is, I know for certain I cannot succeed with any goals in my life with the sickness still active in my mind and body. Gaining strength to face my past, be honest with people about where I've been and prove to them through action not words that I can be relied upon in the future...
Just don't you go and expect me to be your drinking buddy... Ever, ever again.
:ghug3 
Keep up the good work!! 
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Location: Atlanta
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(((Scolova))) - awesome post AND congratulations on 4 months!! I really love how you've let the newbies know that just because we don't "get it" right away when we come here, recovery is entirely possible.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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