shopping for milk at a hardware store
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shopping for milk at a hardware store
hi SR.
my name is OceanSize and i'm alcoholic.
an addict.
i work "program" of AA (have sponsor), therapy, eating disorder group (therapy)
i'm nearing the end of step 4
really aware of fear and acceptance.
I woke up knee deep in HALT (Hungry Angry Lonely Tired).
maybe it's because i slept on the couch, not the bed. maybe it's hormones. but it doesn't matter, why is not a spiritual question.
Yesterday i was full of bliss, i really understood acceptance. but that was yesterday. today has been a struggle and as i start to relax (yay!) i'm realizing that for some reason this is my path today. and when i turn it around, when i nap and rest, i will understand more about what is going on.
and i will stay sober the whole time.
or at least right now.
ugh today has been a challenge!
sooo very
A & T of halt.
perhaps the two go hand in hand?
So what do i do? I go right to the folks who are notoriously without compassion in my life and i contact them.
I sought comfort and get bs. i went to the wrong place.
I notice that i go to the hardware store for milk. That i create expectations around compassion or love that aren't possible to meet. And when the expectations are not met...it's a vicious cycle. Suffering ensues. The hardware store simply doesn't sell milk, no matter how many times i go there and ask for it.
Acceptance is the answer to all my problems.
my name is OceanSize and i'm alcoholic.
an addict.
i work "program" of AA (have sponsor), therapy, eating disorder group (therapy)
i'm nearing the end of step 4
really aware of fear and acceptance.
I woke up knee deep in HALT (Hungry Angry Lonely Tired).
maybe it's because i slept on the couch, not the bed. maybe it's hormones. but it doesn't matter, why is not a spiritual question.
Yesterday i was full of bliss, i really understood acceptance. but that was yesterday. today has been a struggle and as i start to relax (yay!) i'm realizing that for some reason this is my path today. and when i turn it around, when i nap and rest, i will understand more about what is going on.
and i will stay sober the whole time.
or at least right now.
ugh today has been a challenge!
sooo very
A & T of halt.
perhaps the two go hand in hand?
So what do i do? I go right to the folks who are notoriously without compassion in my life and i contact them.
I sought comfort and get bs. i went to the wrong place.
I notice that i go to the hardware store for milk. That i create expectations around compassion or love that aren't possible to meet. And when the expectations are not met...it's a vicious cycle. Suffering ensues. The hardware store simply doesn't sell milk, no matter how many times i go there and ask for it.
Acceptance is the answer to all my problems.
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LOL...I get it and totally understand. Reminds to read the acceptance prayer in the big book. Thanks!
Praying you may find peace and you are right about taking it one day at a time - as this to shall pass.
Praying you may find peace and you are right about taking it one day at a time - as this to shall pass.
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Originally Posted by foodie1 
OceanSize I absolutely love that analogy!! I'm stealing that for my little cache of portable wisdoms, thank you thank you!
God, grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change.
the Courage to change the one I can,
and the Wisdom to know its ME.
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