Scrubmuncher

3 days and no memory, I got so far and I've ruined it all.

vinepest

Oh, you haven't *ruined* it. You enjoyed your time sober, right? Nobody---not even yourself---can take that away from you. Now you just have to return to sobriety.

lbern

How long were you sober before this relapse? What happened? It's good that you were only out for 3 days, I know people who go back out for months or even years before they stop again. Best wishes!

-L

Sudz No More

Don't get too upset, you are still committed to recovery by the fact that you came here to vent. Just pick up where you left off. Just try to remember how terrible you felt after the binge the next time you get the impulse to drink. That is what I do now, the moment I get an alcoholic impulse I flashback to my last withdrawal and I feel stronger to avoid starting again.

BackToSquareOne

Scrub, I've read some of your posts and it seems like you've made a lot of progress lately. It will do less than zero good to get all down on yourself about a relapse. You need to keep a positive attitude, you probably will take a lot of wrong turns along the way, it's rarely a high speed journey forward for anyone. Hang in there and put all the negative thoughts on the back burner, you'll need the space to let the positive thoughts flow.

24hrsAday

One day at a time.... *remember?

Dee74

I agree with BackToSqaureOne - you have made progress recently and made a lot of strides in the right direction, Scrub.

Things would only be truly ruined if you throw the towel in now.

Whats happening with the help you were thinking about?

D

Threshold

I never fell off the wagon, I always took what I thought was a swan dive, but ended up being a belly flop. Ugh.

You haven't ruined everything, here you are back in the solution. Relapse sucks but it doesn't have to be forever and no repeat is neccessary.

Plenty of room on the wagon for all.

grateful101010

Today is a new day, one day at a time.

instant

3 days =all

is bad maths

GregMan

Try and examine the thoughts you had that lead to your lapse, and use the incident as a learning experience. You quit after 3 days, and obviously acknowledge that it was a mistake, so your on the right path... Don't beat yourself up, just move on and up!

keithj

Willing to try something different, Scrub?

choublak

Try keeping a journal...

Windblown

I relapsed one day and for only 2 hours. And the remorse and depression are still with me after 48 hours....so the two hours of fun which was dancing around the living room...the last hour throwing up and feeling sick...was not worth it. I know how you feel....I feel it now. So, I have found a meeting and upped my therapist appt. to today. What else can we do but try again. It will get better every day. Don't beat yourself up. Nobody's perfect...we are only human and I bet there is a lot going for you. Just get up, and try again...if I can, you can.

FattyMcFatty

I did the same, 8 months, then BLAMMO.. 2 nights of drinking (Might as well be days and nights.) No memory of most of it. Felt terrible physically and mentally. Guess what, it's four days later, I've read posts, i've written threads, and I feel much better, and am looking forward to getting this Fatness to the gym tonight, instead of thinking about drinking, or what I have done..

Scrubmuncher

I give up, life is easier in the bottle. Sorry my brothers and sisters but I feel I am useless at this, I just want to see an end to my life, give someone else a chance to use my air space!
I'm signing out, thanks for all you positive everythings.
much love and good will,
Mart xx

Dee74

I think if you read back over your posts here at SR you might rethink that, Mart.
I really hope you change your mind.

D

Terminally Unique

For about two hours, but eventually the bill comes due, with interest.

BASEjumper

Not really scrub, long term sobriety is much easier than what you're going through now.

ForeverDecember

I hope you come back Mart...

That's the real you... Keep trying, Mart, you know you've got it in you to kick this monster in the teeth.