21st birthday, past grief and future hope
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21st birthday, past grief and future hope
one year ago today I woke up, face down on a park bench, with the worst hangover I'd had in a long time. The previous night I'd gotten hammered (as usual), had a massive argument with my girlfriend as everyone around us drunkenly sang Happy Birthday, and I ran off (apparently) to god knows where and did god knows what.
one year ago today was also the day I woke up to the news that one of my oldest friends had killed himself...instead of my bottom, it was one more painful notch on the way down, down, down into grief, drunkeness and oblivion.
this year, I'm sober, surrounded by friends who care for me and assist in my recovery and will not let this birthday be marred by the shame I created from booze. The pain and grief remain, but I'm slowly healing and I don't plan on ever looking back.
thank you SR and all of its members for just being here.
one year ago today was also the day I woke up to the news that one of my oldest friends had killed himself...instead of my bottom, it was one more painful notch on the way down, down, down into grief, drunkeness and oblivion.
this year, I'm sober, surrounded by friends who care for me and assist in my recovery and will not let this birthday be marred by the shame I created from booze. The pain and grief remain, but I'm slowly healing and I don't plan on ever looking back.
thank you SR and all of its members for just being here.
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Ahhhh, thank you everyone, but it's not one year of sobriety for me, I'm just over two months in from my last relapse. I was simply saying that one year ago was the moment I started slipping further and further into my disease and vowing that this year would be different. 
All the birthdays I drank ended up badly and marred my memories of them...this year I will not let that happen, I don't think I've ever vowed something so much and wanted it so badly.
Thank you all for your best wishes.
All the birthdays I drank ended up badly and marred my memories of them...this year I will not let that happen, I don't think I've ever vowed something so much and wanted it so badly.Thank you all for your best wishes.
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