dawnie24

Can believe I let myself down and everyone on here down !! What a stupid mistake and I feel like crap I keep thinkin I'm gonna have an anxiety attack they scare me so much

bellakeller

You didn't let us down. We've all been there. Not too many of us have tried to get sober and been successful from the start. Many of us need help with this.

I use a program of recovery because I want to take the path of least resistance by nature and don't want to have to keep coming up with solutions on my own that don't work anyway.

Hang in there.

Much love.

dawnie24

I feel like breakin down in tears coz I keep havin negative thoughts that ill never stop and that one day I'm gonna lose my 3 children and I'm gonna die it keeps runnin through my head and then I think why me?!

I need serious help I need to get in contact with AA meetings I need to do somethin before I lose my head or do somethin stupid I don't know what to do

LotusBlossom

You just said it in your own post. Get into contact with your own local AA.

Alcoholics Anonymous (A.A.) Great Britain

0845 769 7555

That seems to be the number (I hope US person here).

And remember - More alcohol will not help the problem.

bellakeller

AA helped me get and stay sober. I am grateful that I did not lose my kids.

Much love, kiddo.

Anna

Dawnie, I hope you find something that works for you.

langkah

I got sober in AA when my kids were 3yrs and 8 months old. Can say it made a huge difference for all of us to raise them while in my right mind.

neferkamichael

Dont give up Dawnie, everybody here is rootin for you. I too am suffering from depression, nausea, anxiety, or whatever, cant really identify it. I was talking with an AA member and it was explained that because I am now starting to have other emotions besides anger, I dont know how to "feel", dont know how to respond to myself.
I'm sober for 1 year 4 months, nad today 46 days straigh, "no crack". I've gotta find something to do with myself, goota get moving.
Keep talking here Dawnie, I believe it helps me.
Have a good day.

dawnie24

Thank you ill ring it on monday and see if they have one in my town

dawnie24

Does AA work and what do you have to do in meetings I'm not a very good talker and ill start gettin tongue tied, if I knew the person itd be fine but if I don't I find my self under pressure on what to say then it comes out messed up

dawnrunner

Many stumble on the way to being truly sober. Some stumble many times including myself.

Do not get lost in self-hate. Remember that you are alive, your kids are there with you, and you are richly blessed with possibilities, all of you.

Hold them close and take one step toward a better future: AA is a Godsend in this way, and there are other ways but none so free and open IME.

Cook up a nice meal for your little ones and yourself. Eat it together. One baby step at a time, life will show you the way.

Best wishes!!! Keep it simple.

dawnie24

So do I anna I don't wanna die an alcoholic people who I know have died of alcholic this year and last year and it worries me thinkin one day thatll be me and were will my kids be they need their mother

dawnie24

I'm glad you made it I hope it works for me

dawnie24

Congratulations of makin it all the way, I hate the way I feel and tryin to cope with it brings me down to the point I don't know what to do

dawnie24

Sometimes I feel like I'm in a race and get impatient I want it to happen there and then,, but I know things like this take time and that I have to take one step at a time I wish life was different for the better for my children

bellakeller

You don't have to say a word if you don't want to. And you can probably call the number another poster gave you before Monday. I think they man the phones over the weekend and evenings too. Someone will be able to tell you where a meeting is. It's worth a try when your options seem limited.

Take care.

dawnie24

Wonder if they do an home visit I used to go a place called high level but it was to far to travel and me and travelling don't mix when I'm alone

ArgentOfSilvae

I dont know if AA do home visits, i've certainly not heard of it.

If you want to call though, no need to wait until Monday, there's usually someone on the other end of the line. Even if you just want to have a little chat.

AoS

least

Why not call that number today? Why wait?

dawnie24

Will give them a girl tomorrow then.. I'm using my mobile you see