AprilMay1895

Well, I think my Beast was wearing a sombrero when I typed this this morning. lol I don't know how to tackle "reversals of intent" "relapses" "lapses" "backsliding" "giving in to the urge" "slip ups", whatever your recovery language of choice wants to call it. I always say I'll never drink again and then I do. SMART says that if it happens, you just need to go back and figure out why and re-strategize. I understand this is a dangerous concept, because even now when I think about it being "ok" to slip up, my addiction starts stringing up the party lights. Then with AVRT, as soon as the AV gets the tiniest grip on me, it has me by the ankles. Maybe I just need to bury myself in addiction recovery literature this weekend....I haven't set aside enough time to REALLY study any one concept and if I have, it wasn't good enough because I was too stressed or depressed or hung over to flipping focus on it. I'm surprised I have enough focus lately to even microwave a TV dinner!