Triggers
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Here are some triggers i've learned i have in just the last 57 days of sobriety:
1. social events
2. conferences (i have to go to a lot of them for work)
3. sunny days
4. the feeling of "i need a vacation" "i'll just go sit outside and drink"
5. when i am nervous about....anything(?)
6. when i feel lonely or sorry for myself
7. when i feel angry and want to drink or use "at" someone
8. FOMO: fear of missing out / wanting to be the fun person at every party / wanting to be liked
9. if i start to care about whether or not people like me, i end up triggered
10. dating / being out with a man (i used to order wine to feel fancy or classy. yeah right!)
11. hanging out with my old drinking buddy (see previous thread)
12. hard day at work, or a long day at work
13. public speaking (i would drink after i'm done giving a presentation for work to "calm my nerves")
Here are some triggers i've learned i have in just the last 57 days of sobriety:
1. social events
2. conferences (i have to go to a lot of them for work)
3. sunny days
4. the feeling of "i need a vacation" "i'll just go sit outside and drink"
5. when i am nervous about....anything(?)
6. when i feel lonely or sorry for myself
7. when i feel angry and want to drink or use "at" someone
8. FOMO: fear of missing out / wanting to be the fun person at every party / wanting to be liked
9. if i start to care about whether or not people like me, i end up triggered
10. dating / being out with a man (i used to order wine to feel fancy or classy. yeah right!)
11. hanging out with my old drinking buddy (see previous thread)
12. hard day at work, or a long day at work
13. public speaking (i would drink after i'm done giving a presentation for work to "calm my nerves")
So, I'm at a ~3.5 months right now. This week I've had a few trigger thoughts.
One is this imaginary glass of wine: a really good wine, catching little bits of light in it. The other is feeling celebratory--a few things have gone really right lately. It only takes me a moment to realize that this is BECAUSE I am not drinking.
On some level, I understand what I'm craving in the ideal-glass-of-wine is a feeling of warmth. When I imagine this, and slow it down, it's a feeling of complex longing, one that I don't think I could name.
Wow, I'm just thinking how the world seems so strange sometimes.
Glad you're all here on-board.
One is this imaginary glass of wine: a really good wine, catching little bits of light in it. The other is feeling celebratory--a few things have gone really right lately. It only takes me a moment to realize that this is BECAUSE I am not drinking.
On some level, I understand what I'm craving in the ideal-glass-of-wine is a feeling of warmth. When I imagine this, and slow it down, it's a feeling of complex longing, one that I don't think I could name.
Wow, I'm just thinking how the world seems so strange sometimes.
Glad you're all here on-board.
frustration, loneliness, boredom, insomnia, thoughtlessness, thoughtfulness, being overwhelmed, being confused, being on-point, happiness, sadness, anger, extreme anger, exhaustion, my boyfriend, going to school, working, waking up, hearing about religion, atheists, ignorance, know-it-alls, memories of Jody, eating pancakes, lunch, cooking, dinner, blankets, cookies, my dog, the second hand on the clock, estimating fractions in math class, listening to that one girl speak on math class, peeing whenever i have the chance to, planting nelly steven's hollies, drugs, family, shopping ....
Those are some of the things that trigger my crave to drink.
Those are some of the things that trigger my crave to drink.
The only trigger I've really seen in an alcoholic untreated alcoholism + anything......or nothing, now that I think of it. In a state of "not drinking" with untreated alcoholism, anything and nothing is a trigger.
I have two courses of action from there, treat the alcoholism and get recovered or.....start drinking. Before, I used to think it was good time drinking, bad time drinking, low self esteem, wanting to escape, needing a release, to stuff emotions.....bla bla bla...... those really were just the excuses I came up with though. Deep down, all it took was that dis-ease that comes with untreated alcoholism and just being awake is a trigger.
I have two courses of action from there, treat the alcoholism and get recovered or.....start drinking. Before, I used to think it was good time drinking, bad time drinking, low self esteem, wanting to escape, needing a release, to stuff emotions.....bla bla bla...... those really were just the excuses I came up with though. Deep down, all it took was that dis-ease that comes with untreated alcoholism and just being awake is a trigger.
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