90 days
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90 days
I haven't posted in a while, but I wanted to say I reached 90 days today.
Thanks to SR and AVRT and a few of my own mind tricks, I will never drink again. I rarely even have cravings anymore. But life isn't great or anything. I am depressed and bored. Basically I am back to how I was before I ever took my first drink. But at least I won't have cirrhosis.
Thanks to SR and AVRT and a few of my own mind tricks, I will never drink again. I rarely even have cravings anymore. But life isn't great or anything. I am depressed and bored. Basically I am back to how I was before I ever took my first drink. But at least I won't have cirrhosis.
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Thanks.
I saw doctors for depression a few times many years ago and didn't get anywhere. They mindlessly jacked me with different drugs to see which one would work. Those drugs all had side-effects and withdrawal symptoms that the doctors try to downplay. So I'm not eager to go back I guess. It just costs money and doesn't help. In fact it hurts.
I saw doctors for depression a few times many years ago and didn't get anywhere. They mindlessly jacked me with different drugs to see which one would work. Those drugs all had side-effects and withdrawal symptoms that the doctors try to downplay. So I'm not eager to go back I guess. It just costs money and doesn't help. In fact it hurts.
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Thanks Dee. I think depression is something I will just have to struggle with for the rest of my life. I no longer think there is a cure. My time is better spent on coping with depression than actually trying to cure it. I thought my Day 90 would be so much more exciting, but it's been totally anticlimactic. I'm not even happy for myself. I feel miserable. It's not even that I want a drink because I don't. I'm just miserable for no known reason.
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Great to hear from you, abc. 90 days is terrific! Many people continue to have depression months after quitting; it's possible it could improve simply by staying sober. But at the very least, I'm sure you are in a much better position to cope.
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Thanks Dee. I think depression is something I will just have to struggle with for the rest of my life. I no longer think there is a cure. My time is better spent on coping with depression than actually trying to cure it. I thought my Day 90 would be so much more exciting, but it's been totally anticlimactic. I'm not even happy for myself. I feel miserable. It's not even that I want a drink because I don't. I'm just miserable for no known reason.
Fantastic news on your 90 days!!! Well done!
You mentioned that 'many years ago' you consulted doctors and took a cocktail of medication for your depression. Well, me too (and a lot more than that). Nothing worked. Guess why? I was drinking at the time.
This is not medical advice, but I just wanted to let you know that nowadays anti-depressants are a lot more sophisticated. I have been taking just one for approx 4 weeks (stopped drinking 6 weeks ago) and I feel MUCH better than I have in at least 6 years. I wish I had acted way, WAY sooner.
Might be worth looking into it again.
I will always be at risk for depression too, but I fully believe that with the right treatment (which doesn't have to be medication either, as you say) it can absolutely be managed. But not alone, at least not easily.
Wishing you the best of luck,
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I haven't posted in a while, but I wanted to say I reached 90 days today.
Thanks to SR and AVRT and a few of my own mind tricks, I will never drink again. I rarely even have cravings anymore. But life isn't great or anything. I am depressed and bored. Basically I am back to how I was before I ever took my first drink. But at least I won't have cirrhosis.
Thanks to SR and AVRT and a few of my own mind tricks, I will never drink again. I rarely even have cravings anymore. But life isn't great or anything. I am depressed and bored. Basically I am back to how I was before I ever took my first drink. But at least I won't have cirrhosis.
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