Just a FYI
Just a FYI
I Just want to let all those here know where I am right now. I have posted asking for help over the past couple months after my last relapse, and I never posted without honest meaning behind it. But now looking back at it I see I was still what you would call a "dry drunk".And right before my last post it wasn't even "dry"...between my last relaspe and my last post here I was doing some pills/drugs and still thought I was "sober"(obviously not sober)
I'm sorry for the way I was recently if I offended anyone. I hope I didn't, but if I came across offensive then that's not how I meant to be.
My last relapse's were full of a almost 2 fifth of Vodka, a couple joints, a few vicodin, and 3 tylenol Pm just for good measure. How I am still alive I have no idea.
But...if anything, I am a testament to how durable we actually are. Because not only have I been back to a AA meeting every day, but just Friday I re enrolled myself voluntarily into a local Intensive Outpatient Therapy program as well.
I am looking forward ti getting my life back again.
Steve
I'm sorry for the way I was recently if I offended anyone. I hope I didn't, but if I came across offensive then that's not how I meant to be.
My last relapse's were full of a almost 2 fifth of Vodka, a couple joints, a few vicodin, and 3 tylenol Pm just for good measure. How I am still alive I have no idea.
But...if anything, I am a testament to how durable we actually are. Because not only have I been back to a AA meeting every day, but just Friday I re enrolled myself voluntarily into a local Intensive Outpatient Therapy program as well.
I am looking forward ti getting my life back again.
Steve
Thanks guys. I just want to tell everyone thanks. Because I was so messed up with the way I was here these past few weeks. I'll tell you all what I just told Dee in a Pm tonight. The last post I made a week+ ago..I honestly "thought" I was "sober" when I made that post. I was not even close to "sober". I was smoking a few joints, popped a few vicodin, and backed it up with a few Tylenol Pm just for good measure. yet because my lips never touched a bootle, I considered that "sober" lol crazy isnt it?
Anyway...Again I am sorry for even coming to this site while under the influence of ANYTHING at all and posting. I hope I can be forgiven for that and enjoy again the friendship of SR while I work back on my recovery again.
Steve
Anyway...Again I am sorry for even coming to this site while under the influence of ANYTHING at all and posting. I hope I can be forgiven for that and enjoy again the friendship of SR while I work back on my recovery again.
Steve
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Just a quick word to say keep trying. Our first quit date was very similar and your journey inspired me. We never spoke but I enjoyed your updates (especially the fishing trip photos). I fell off the wagon but am now back on with you, two years later.
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"To thine own self be true".
Thats what is written on the back of the AA medallions. Now they could of wrote anything there but they chose that. Thats what this all comes down to. Good luck and God bless.
Thats what is written on the back of the AA medallions. Now they could of wrote anything there but they chose that. Thats what this all comes down to. Good luck and God bless.
Up early today because I'm headed to another Morning meeting in a bit. But just wanted to let everyone know how things are. I'm 3 IOP meetings (Intensive Out Patient) meetings in, and even though this the 2nd IOP I did now (first was 8 yrs ago) I actually am learning some things again which I didn't think I would.
And I'm also somewhat enjoying these early morn (AA) meetings more than the evening ones to be honest which I never would have guessed I would.
So at the moment at least, things are good. I'm starting to get back on my own feet yet again. And felling pretty good about myself again, which is great.
Hope you all have a good weekend.
Steve
And I'm also somewhat enjoying these early morn (AA) meetings more than the evening ones to be honest which I never would have guessed I would.
So at the moment at least, things are good. I'm starting to get back on my own feet yet again. And felling pretty good about myself again, which is great.
Hope you all have a good weekend.
Steve
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I am a big fan of early morning meetings....I just made me feel good to begin my day focusing on AA recovery...
Forward is the correct direction Steve...
Forward is the correct direction Steve...
Steve
My morning meeting is 630am. IMHO, what you tend to get that early in the day are a lot of working, sober drunks and addicts like me, that want to start the day off right. I can related to that.
But I'm actually liking that because you really get to talk/know these people at these small meetings. It's much more personal.
Steve
The other thing about the evening meetings is they are FULL of court ordered people, most of whom are there to get their cards signed and have no interest in recovery (not knocking these people, I was one of them once).
In my morning meeting we have a ton of folks who are there because they WANT to be there, and stay sober. We still get court ordered folks too and I have seen many have great recoveries, but the focus in my morning meetings is much better, and more personal, like Steve says.
In my morning meeting we have a ton of folks who are there because they WANT to be there, and stay sober. We still get court ordered folks too and I have seen many have great recoveries, but the focus in my morning meetings is much better, and more personal, like Steve says.
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