I relapsed :-(
DOS: 11/6/10
Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: Florida Panhandle, USA
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You can do this, TigerLili... it's true that you have to want sobriety enough to reach out- - and for me, the first place I reached out to was this very forum. And for a while, that alone worked. For some people, a little more is necessary- myself included. Hang in there and keep posting.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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Location: Serene In Dixie
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I sure hope yoou will soon quit again...you do know it is in your best interest to do so...
Here is a link to a thread you might wish to join
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...er-2011-a.html
Here is a link to a thread you might wish to join
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...er-2011-a.html
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Join Date: Apr 2010
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Originally Posted by TigerLili 
Everything is better when I don't drink and I really want to get back to that place. It seems so far off though.
i so know that feeling.
the good news is, we only have to take it one day at a time
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Join Date: May 2008
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Feeling a bit shaky. I DON'T want to drink. I just want drinking to be in the past. I hate it, I hate the way it makes me feel and the self-hatred and regret that always follows. I lulled myself into a false sense of security thinking I could have just one now and then. Ha. That worked for a few months and then the flood gates opened and I'd drink until I threw up. I don't want to live like that or feel like that. I'd give anything if the urge to drink could just be taken away. A lot of people say that in meetings - that their desire to drink was lifted from the first meeting. Mine left me at around 6 months. I really, really want to get there again. I'm excited about getting my sobriety back, but it makes me wonder if I can stay in the relationship I'm in with a binge drinking alcoholic - a few weeks of sobriety, a few weeks of heavy drinking, lather, rinse, repeat.
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TigerLili, learn from your slip up but don't beat yourself up over it. It's a journey and sometime we get off at the wrong exit, just make a u-turn and continue on. Hope it all works out for you and only good things come your way.
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i have heard you mention going to meetings or meetings in general many times throughout here. What i have not heard you mention is doing the program of AA. I could see where going to meetings without working the program would not be enjoyable. My meetings took on a whole new feel once i started working the steps. The Fellowship of AA, which is near and dear to my heart, is only one side of our triangle.
Have you considered going back to AA and doing the work?
Have you considered going back to AA and doing the work?
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Join Date: May 2008
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LaFemme - I've ordered the book, thanks!
GettingStronger2 - I've had several sponsors and home groups (do you have home groups in the US?). I've yet to complete the Steps although I've had several attempts with different sponsors. I had one sponsor who kept me on Step 4 for nearly a year - she just kept telling me to go away and do more work on it, but couldn't elaborate on what work it was I needed to do that I wasn't doing on it. The experience left me very sour on the sponsors and the programme. THe other two sponsors weren't working from the BB and were using a hybrid of self-help books so that didn't work out. I've got a standing invitation to join a closed women's Steps discussion group lol.
GettingStronger2 - I've had several sponsors and home groups (do you have home groups in the US?). I've yet to complete the Steps although I've had several attempts with different sponsors. I had one sponsor who kept me on Step 4 for nearly a year - she just kept telling me to go away and do more work on it, but couldn't elaborate on what work it was I needed to do that I wasn't doing on it. The experience left me very sour on the sponsors and the programme. THe other two sponsors weren't working from the BB and were using a hybrid of self-help books so that didn't work out. I've got a standing invitation to join a closed women's Steps discussion group lol.
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